Post by quinn on Sept 19, 2013 7:10:02 GMT -5
Yeah, since we're talking about 'expressing' here - you're right. I don't mean a lack of dissonance equates to bliss or unending happiness. I'm referring to something more subtle - maybe dissonance isn't a good word to use. I mean it in the sense of dissatisfaction or struggle. Doesn't have to be a big struggle, although it could be. It could be a very subtle underlying sense that something is off.
Life expressing itself includes heartbreak and pain and giddiness and loss and all sorts of human stuff. When they're experience cleanly, without that struggle - no dissonance. When they're not, the dissonance can be noticed.
The best way I can do it is by an example. Last year, my mother died. There were two points in there where I got completely overtaken by grief - once was when I had finished cleaning out her apartment and was walking away from it, the other was when the urn was put in the ground. It was weak-in-the-knees sobbing. Came up unexpectedly because up until those points, her death had been somewhat of a blessing, considering how debilitated she was (and mentally gone for awhile).
That was clean. That was a natural human reaction to an ending, a loss. Probably not too 'spiritual' (since there 'is no death' and I never 'had' her to lose in the first place, yada yada), but there nevertheless. Afterward, I went into a mind-spin about the whole life/death/attachments bizness, which was not so clean. It was actually Silence who helped me see what I was creating with that.
So the dissonance I'm talking about could be framed as an argument with what's happening, but I didn't do that cause I'm not sure it's solely in the realm of mind. There seems to be an energetic aspect to it too.