Post by Deleted on Sept 16, 2013 21:02:01 GMT -5
Most of you know from past posts that I have been working toward a constant state of relative samadhi.
The main practice that I used is to focus on an object or experience with so much alertness and concentration that one merges into the object or experience and disappears, or becomes one with the object or experience.
The actual experience of this is too profound to actually communicate with words, but I can best say it as its an immense alert awareness, immense beyond communicability.
If one uses a bowl to focus their alert concentrated attention upon, one merges with and disappears into being the bowl etc.
I used this process to continouosly concentrate on whatever sensory experience that caught my eye or ear, constantly shifting the point of attention to whatever I encountered througout the day in such a way that "I" was not there almost continously all day long.
Recently I started keeping my concentrated attention on only two things: Universal Sound, and My own Self....my "me-ness".
Much as Niz described it, I kept absolute and concentrated attention on ME.
And, just as with the bowl, I became one with ME.
I know that might sound absurd, but the phenomena is like this:
When you observe an object like a bowl with complete and alert concentration for long enough, the first thing that happens is that the act of observing disappears...there is no more action or doing, only the stillness of observer and observed.
With still more concentration and alertness the observer disappears into the bowl and you kinda become the bowl with no self, only bowl-ness occuring. (That last bit has to be experienced to understand what I mean). There is a profound vastness, aliveness, awakeness, in this "no self bowl experience".
What happened when I centered the same kind of concentrated alert attention on ME, is that just as with the bowl, the observer of ME disappears and merges with the observed experience.
and just as with the bowl, there is a vast alertness....when one the observer disappears into the self, its as if all of existance is merged with.....
Your center of awareness is your "Self"...your individuation is the center of your sensory and thought universe. When you merge with your self, you disapear and merge into all of everything. THE ALIVENESS IS UTTER AND PROFOUND LOL
At the risk of sounding a bit looney to some of you, I can only conceptualize it by saying that it feels like being God.
The main practice that I used is to focus on an object or experience with so much alertness and concentration that one merges into the object or experience and disappears, or becomes one with the object or experience.
The actual experience of this is too profound to actually communicate with words, but I can best say it as its an immense alert awareness, immense beyond communicability.
If one uses a bowl to focus their alert concentrated attention upon, one merges with and disappears into being the bowl etc.
I used this process to continouosly concentrate on whatever sensory experience that caught my eye or ear, constantly shifting the point of attention to whatever I encountered througout the day in such a way that "I" was not there almost continously all day long.
Recently I started keeping my concentrated attention on only two things: Universal Sound, and My own Self....my "me-ness".
Much as Niz described it, I kept absolute and concentrated attention on ME.
And, just as with the bowl, I became one with ME.
I know that might sound absurd, but the phenomena is like this:
When you observe an object like a bowl with complete and alert concentration for long enough, the first thing that happens is that the act of observing disappears...there is no more action or doing, only the stillness of observer and observed.
With still more concentration and alertness the observer disappears into the bowl and you kinda become the bowl with no self, only bowl-ness occuring. (That last bit has to be experienced to understand what I mean). There is a profound vastness, aliveness, awakeness, in this "no self bowl experience".
What happened when I centered the same kind of concentrated alert attention on ME, is that just as with the bowl, the observer of ME disappears and merges with the observed experience.
and just as with the bowl, there is a vast alertness....when one the observer disappears into the self, its as if all of existance is merged with.....
Your center of awareness is your "Self"...your individuation is the center of your sensory and thought universe. When you merge with your self, you disapear and merge into all of everything. THE ALIVENESS IS UTTER AND PROFOUND LOL
At the risk of sounding a bit looney to some of you, I can only conceptualize it by saying that it feels like being God.