hello everybody! i registered because of this thread, to give an account of my experience with RT.
well, i am one of the liberated 90 or what that number is right now. one of the silent ones that 'wandered off'. this is my first post ever about liberation. i am not from ruthless truth. but they are the ones that freed me. not the 3 years of daily eckhart tolle and not a fascination for jed mckenna. they did.
2 months ago i stumbled onto ciarans blog by coincidence. it was an entertaining read... i couldn't wrap my head around what everybody was saying but it was kinda cool and i was curios... reading through the battles i tried to understand both sides... after a while i started LOOKING and something happened that i didn't expect at all.
i can't describe it even. something small subtle in my head snapped. i saw the delusion of self. that it's not real. that there is nothing. then all perspective changed. everything changed and has never been the same again. it can never be.
(you can see my email exchange with ciaran here:
ruthlesstruthdotcom.blogspot.com/2010/11/german-efficiency.html )
so 2 months later... am i enlightened???
what does that even mean??! a word full of tales and fantasies.
i don't have 'the wisdom' or any of that... but what i do know is that i am "liberated of self". the deep knowing that there is no "me". everything' still there, except for the "I". and through that everything changes. dual becomes non-dual.
there are emotions, thoughts, actions and really everything is still there like before... but there is no entity in the middle which any of those could belong to. everything just is. everything just happens.
and it's not a conceptual understanding (like i had in my 3 years of tolle) or reciting some wise blissful words that i want to believe and that make me sound wise and spiritual. no, it's a real and constant experiencing.
i am not a highly spiritually educated guy, i don't know many names except tolle and mckenna. i am some 26 year old guy from germany. whatever more insights there are to be found from here, i don't know. i am only talking personal experience here... the realization of no-self is the gate, the "gateless gate" jed talks about. all the metaphors and pointers and citations of all these enlightened youtube guys. i get them... i get what they point at. not conceptually but for real... easy.
perception of life has changed competely. 26 years of experience, thoughts and beliefs. all rendered to bullsh*t. all my everyday worries and problems about "me". i wouldn't say it's all gone, there is confusion, doubts, whatever... it's just that nothing of it matters anymore. meaningless. just bullsh*t passing through.
i no longer feel incomplete, no longer feel incontempt, no longer feel sad, no longer feel frustrated... haha don't think it's happiness and bless all day either. nah, everything just is. and when i look into the "me", into "my experience" - when i look into that all i find is emptiness. because there is no "me".
and by the way emptiness sounds bad or scary but only from the view of the false self. it's really cool actually
i mentioned the youtube guys... spiritual teachers... once your free you get EXACTLY what they point to. it's soooo obvious once you see it yourself -- and you think how can everybody else NOT see what they mean!
i remember watching this guy half a year ago for the first time and i was thinking what a weird guy... like is he a fraud or for real? back then i watched 5 minutes of him then thought what a tolle copycat... (like i said i am not spiritually educated
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it's only a couple of days ago that i stumbled upon him again...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETxXg26j2iU&playnext=1&list=PLE25618BAEDFE0785&index=33watch it. once you're free it's ridiculous clear that he gets it and what he is pointing to. different messenger, different packaging, SAME MESSAGE.
ruthless truth is trying to get you there... and it's so simple if you'd just look. no argument would be necessary, you would just SEE it for yourself. ruthless truth wouldn't be necessary if you would just look. if you'd just look, look at what everybody is pointing to, LOOK, instead of soaking up the blissful words of the gurus so that you feel good about yourself...
if you would truly LOOK. then all the other stuff out there would work. RT wouldn't have to challenge you.
but you are not looking. the truth is you don't want to look. you just want to feel good. you are full of bullsh*t and you are lying to yourself. and what RT does it shows you the mirror and makes you look into your ugly face of delusion. THAT is why you don't like them.
but thats also why it works. why it worked for me and for so many others.
look at the message. THERE IS NO YOU. don't distract yourself. engage with this.
...to bad you're just not into looking.
it's not even funny what everybody here is doing instead. the whole thread is proof. i mean look at yourself what YOU are doing. instead of looking at the truth that liberates you everybody is looking for reasons not to look. let's just do everything else EXCEPT looking. let's spend the time talking sh*t about RT or shifting away to more lighter blissful topics or starting useless discussions and arguments... or why not start talking sh*t about me and my credibility. yeah call me another nut from RT. just don't look into your false self full of lies and delusion.
can't you see how you are distracting yourself from it?
LOOK. THERE IS NO YOU. engage with this.
don't waste your time with the messenger. LOOK AT THE MESSAGE. the truth is RIGHT IN YOUR FACE.
but no dice, you're not looking.
what are you here for then?
it's not a fix. it's not bliss. but once you realize you don't exist you are free. simple pure freedom.
the actual realization of this as truth. even if i want, i cannot see the falseness in this anymore, i test myself, i try to see the "me", i try to see the world like before when i wasn't free of self...
but i can't. i am free.
i am not affiliated with RT in any way, shape or form... except that one day i stumbled upon their site and i got free. simply by reading, enquiring and looking.
2 months have passed and its the first spiritual forum i ever visited. so only out of curiosity and coincidence i stumbled upon this thread. nobody send me here.
i registered to post because i read the whole thread and i can't believe how the 'spiritual crowd' can be so sh*t. i am new to the spiritual crowd but this?? THIS IS IT??? what an ugly face.
since i got my freedom i tried to free family & friends and with them i can understand that they have a hard time hearing and looking at the message. i didn't expect anything else, when even tolle was to much to them. but HERE??? you people claim you are seekers??? 5000 views and so little to say??
and to those who said something... so little was about this truth and so much about ME ME ME packaged into blissful talk. but underneath it's like youtube comments. and then BAM. you got so easily exposed. you still don't engage. you scream a little and when you realize you look like a fool you wander off. and hide. only to come back and try to fix it. fix up your false sense of self. that's all this is about to you.
whoa, i mean really. come on.
YOU reader. stop playing with karma points. do something REAL, how about you free yourself, LOOK AT THE MESSAGE. there's people who came here and all they are here for is to just get you to look at the truth. they scream the truth at you. it's simple, it's real, JUST LOOK.
all you do is sniff at them and look the other way???
thats really all you got? is the message not pretty enough for you? does it not stimulate and enrich your 'spiritual self'??
it's so sad and pathetic to see what is actually happening here. sickening. because you guys claim to be spiritual. i don't even know 10% of the stuff that all you 'spiritual seekers' know about enlightenment and spirituality... but judging from this thread... keep your knowledge. keep masturbating with your CONCEPTUAL understandings. because thats all your doing.
the flowery words of bliss you recite and bathe in account for nothing.
shallow feelgood bullsh*t that accomplishes nothing.
OR you look at the truth that frees you.
but you already made your choice, haven't you.
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