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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 20:47:04 GMT -5
That's because it hurt - I was bewildered by his post because I'm still finding my way to this opening onto the beautiful meadow - I guess. Sigh. I thought I explained myself pretty darned good, ohc so I'll refrain from repeating myself. It's a new g.d. day. Wake youself up! P.s. Just askin' - have you lost a child or a person you love yet? p.p.s. I like your bad poem btw~* If an abortion (with an ex-girlfriend) counts for a child, then yes. If a loved one includes grandparents, then yes. If a loved one includes a childhood friend then yes. If not, then nope. The wife, parents, and siblings are all still kicking. His comments may never open to a meadow for ya. Who cares? The more you chew on them, the more life they are given in the now....AKA the meadow. Some things just suck. Like his comments for you. It's okay. Breathe in and out. Open your eyes. Look outside the window. See any of his comments out there? ahhhhhhhhh. That's nice...... p.s. thanks, it was the worst I could do at that moment. Stick around though, cause I'm sure I'll have some "better" crap flow out of my mind.......oops, there it goes again. I appreciate youre share - the potential kid, grandparents, etc. Maybe there's a place for bleeding hearts. I got over my mom - and I thought I never would. I was too young to appreciate my grandmother's death. My brother's loss was a most heavy day. And my son's loss - well, I feel crazed. Phew. Each one is a totally different 'flavor' of death. And I totally get Top's take on it - we've been through this before a few billion times, lol. I have flashes of Lt. Dan and all his male relatives before him dying in battle, hahaha.
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Post by quinn on Oct 2, 2012 20:48:19 GMT -5
By Eve Ensler
I love being a girl. I can feel what you're feeling as you're feeling it inside the feeling before. I am an emotional creature. Things do not come to me as intellectual theories or hard-shaped ideas. They pulse through my organs and legs and burn up my ears. I know when your girlfriend's really pissed off even though she appears to give you what you want. I know when a storm is coming. I can feel the invisible stirrings in the air. I can tell you he won't call back. It's a vibe I share.
I am an emotional creature. I love that I do not take things lightly. Everything is intense to me. The way I walk in the street. The way my mother wakes me up. The way I hear bad news. The way it's unbearable when I lose.
I am an emotional creature. I am connected to everything and everyone. I was born like that. Don't you dare say all negative that it's a teenage thing or it's only only because I'm a girl. These feelings make me better. They make me ready. They make me present. They make me strong.
I am an emotional creature. There is a particular way of knowing. It's like the older women somehow forgot. I rejoice that it's still in my body.
I know when the coconut's about to fall. I know that we've pushed the earth too far. I know my father isn't coming back. That no one's prepared for the fire. I know that lipstick means more than show. I know that boys feel super-insecure and so-called terrorists are made, not born. I know that one kiss can take away all my decision-making ability and sometimes, you know, it should.
This is not extreme. It's a girl thing. What we would all be if the big door inside us flew open. Don't tell me not to cry. To calm it down Not to be so extreme To be reasonable. I am an emotional creature. It's how the earth got made. How the wind continues to pollinate. You don't tell the Atlantic ocean to behave.
I am an emotional creature. Why would you want to shut me down or turn me off? I am your remaining memory. I am connecting you to your source. Nothing's been diluted. Nothing’s leaked out. I can take you back.
I love that I can feel the inside of the feelings in you, even if it stops my life even if it hurts too much or takes me off track even if it breaks my heart. It makes me responsible. I am an emotional I am an emotional, devotional, incandotional, creature. And I love, hear me, love love love being a girl.
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Post by laughter on Oct 2, 2012 20:48:45 GMT -5
*Splashes gasoline around and flicks lighter* ... Relish your grief Wallow in it For as long as you choose It is only the dark side Of joy. Red Alert! Red Alert! ... Security to the Transporter room! We seem to have a poem here that does not suck!!! ... This ... is ... an ENIGTRUSION!
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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 20:52:37 GMT -5
I am THAT said Niz forgetting that Niz is also THIS -- - - - --- - ---- -- - - - ---- - - now, silver, can I please get my honor back? ;D You're the one who brought it up.
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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 20:56:39 GMT -5
Oh my, we got some lovely stuff goin' on here! It's good - and bad. Ty Enigma, Quinn, oh my gosh - great stuff - baby. And these lines made me really laugh: You don't tell the Atlantic ocean to behave.
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Post by onehandclapping on Oct 2, 2012 21:04:20 GMT -5
HAHAHA!! "Those like you". HAHAHA!! "Not in your favor in the long run". HAHAHA! Seriously you need to be a non-duality comedian with lines like those. I'm laughing - but I'm puzzled. It feels like Reefs is the only one 'agin' me. What - is - he - talking- about? He's trying to say he loves you and thinks you are perfect just as you are.
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Post by enigma on Oct 2, 2012 21:10:21 GMT -5
*Splashes gasoline around and flicks lighter* ... Relish your grief Wallow in it For as long as you choose It is only the dark side Of joy. Red Alert! Red Alert! ... Security to the Transporter room! We seem to have a poem here that does not suck!!! ... This ... is ... an ENIGTRUSION! *Enigmatically beams out into empty space just as the transporter room door swooshes open.*
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Post by onehandclapping on Oct 2, 2012 21:19:26 GMT -5
I appreciate youre share - the potential kid, grandparents, etc. Maybe there's a place for bleeding hearts. I got over my mom - and I thought I never would. I was too young to appreciate my grandmother's death. My brother's loss was a most heavy day. And my son's loss - well, I feel crazed. Phew. Each one is a totally different 'flavor' of death. And I totally get Top's take on it - we've been through this before a few billion times, lol. I have flashes of Lt. Dan and all his male relatives before him dying in battle, How did you get over your mom's death? I ask because there might be some advice that you can give yourself in that explanation. The fish sticks I'm eating appear to have a different flavor than the chips I'm eating. Do they? Or is that just the thoughts popping up? Hmmm. I better check out by eating another chip. *crunch* Fish stick.... *crunch* Gotta say that they both taste.....mmmm mmmm gooooood!!
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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 21:21:48 GMT -5
Hey Top. There are a variety of ways to look at this. Even though I've spent a lot of time here, I'm not one of you. Or am i? I'm not knowing yet if I'm a wannabe or a not-sureiwannabe. All I know is I'm definitely looking n searching here. Maybe this isn't the place for women. I get fr*king emotional just saying that last sentence. Cripe - grumblegrumble. Emotionally a basket case, just like most females. Yeah, I realize I'm wallowing, but my opening poem was, well what it was. I mean, you guys go out into this big wide world and meet all kinds of folks, a lot of 'em just like me - I don't imagine a lot of them are visiting places on line like this or searching for 'something different' like me. I'm in the midst of this adventure. Some of the stuff I get - I'm not so sure I'm going to end up buying it hook-line and sinker. There may be some things I take away from this belief system, for lack of a better term. Because it's mostly guys, the thought that crossed my mind is maybe it's more taylored to guys' 'needs' or something. I don't know. Maybe it's not going to end up all that suitable for me. I don't know yet. So, I'm not sure I want to be fully indoctrinated / baptized. Bottom line for this thread is I'll wallow until I find something 'better'. ;D Wallow away. Share as long as you want to and as much as you see fit to share. That's what's awesome about THIS, EVERYTHING IS INCLUDED!!!! Just because this forum is normally a bunch of male egos trying to out mind each other, doesn't mean there isn't a place for some emotions. Those words are quite beautiful to me. Everywhere I look, there's more emotion. Every pocket, it's in every nook and cranny - it's in my hair and it seems to be coming out of every well, my ears. ;D
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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 21:25:44 GMT -5
I appreciate youre share - the potential kid, grandparents, etc. Maybe there's a place for bleeding hearts. I got over my mom - and I thought I never would. I was too young to appreciate my grandmother's death. My brother's loss was a most heavy day. And my son's loss - well, I feel crazed. Phew. Each one is a totally different 'flavor' of death. And I totally get Top's take on it - we've been through this before a few billion times, lol. I have flashes of Lt. Dan and all his male relatives before him dying in battle, How did you get over your mom's death? I ask because there might be some advice that you can give yourself in that explanation. The fish sticks I'm eating appear to have a different flavor than the chips I'm eating. Do they? Or is that just the thoughts popping up? Hmmm. I better check out by eating another chip. *crunch* Fish stick.... *crunch* Gotta say that they both taste.....mmmm mmmm gooooood!! You silly. My mom's death? It just seems like time was the only thing.
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Post by Reefs on Oct 2, 2012 21:55:09 GMT -5
You're the one who brought it up.
Yup. Style over content. It's finger time again. *** silently lifts index finger ***
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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 22:04:09 GMT -5
You're the one who brought it up.
Yup. Style over content. It's finger time again. *** silently lifts index finger *** Sometimes that is a significant gesture... Other times, it's a ploy to win an argument or whatever this is. Ahhh...Bach.
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Post by Reefs on Oct 2, 2012 22:30:16 GMT -5
Sometimes that is a significant gesture...
Other times, it's a ploy to win an argument or whatever this is.
Ahhh...Bach. I took your comment about Reefs being the only one 'agin' you as a sign of you not being ready to explore what I was trying to say. In this case the finger is just a gesture that it's not the right time and that I'm going to take the STFU route from here.
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Post by silver on Oct 2, 2012 23:04:00 GMT -5
Sometimes that is a significant gesture...
Other times, it's a ploy to win an argument or whatever this is.
Ahhh...Bach. I took your comment about Reefs being the only one 'agin' you as a sign of you not being ready to explore what I was trying to say. In this case the finger is just a gesture that it's not the right time and that I'm going to take the STFU route from here. I didn't now what you meant by what you were saying. You laid the card down and then acted disinterested in taking the convo any further.
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Post by enigma on Oct 2, 2012 23:27:09 GMT -5
I took your comment about Reefs being the only one 'agin' you as a sign of you not being ready to explore what I was trying to say. In this case the finger is just a gesture that it's not the right time and that I'm going to take the STFU route from here. I didn't now what you meant by what you were saying. You laid the card down and then acted disinterested in taking the convo any further. Seems to me the following was an attempt to take the convo further. You didn't respond to it, which might mean you didn't understand it, or it might mean it upset you and you didn't want to deal with it. In either case, it seems it was you who didn't want to take the convo further.
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