I really don't know exactly. It seems I'm surrounded by negative energies showing up as mostly relatives. It's hard to explain without going into probably a lot of unnecessary details. It also seems like whatever environment I'm in I take on qualities of that environment. Not sure thou. Not sure even if one can really define things in terms of negative and positive. There are children involved and because of my understandings it seems it makes me responsible to do something about it. For example, yesterday one of the children got a whipping by the mother. She was whipping the child (eight years old) with her hand and I thought it was actually abuse. I don't believe in whipping children in anyway much less the way she was out of anger. I feel the children are being damaged and
are already damaged. When I try to do something I'm pulled into all this negative energy. I'm not to concerned about being pulled into negative energy but I don't want to become part of the problem either. It's like the parents are children themselves. They all call each other names. Their all so selfish with each other.
As far as enlightenment goes. If reincarnation is true I probably didn't come here to be enlightened but somehow all the circumstances came together in a way that led to me becoming aware of this possibility. And I have had enough actual experiences for me to realize such a state does exist so that is good. I'm sure the mind is trying to protect itself with these ideas too so I try not to give them to much credence. It's just I don't fit the enlightenment profile as I haven't come into this world with many blessings, not a particularly good family, or looks, or money, or brains. Maybe next time. Who knows maybe this time.
Anyway, I've been trying to raise the consciousness of these people here by occasionally watching programs, although not exactly about enlightenment (as they would never sit through a discussion about that), but programs that would possibly show them a better way, in the process I might actually learn something that helps me too. One of the programs was this guy:
I don't think this guy is a lier but who knows. My mother has been ill lately and concerned about her health so I thought this was a good opportunity to sneak in some spiritual stuff
. But what he said I found very interesting. He recounts a story where he seen a dog that got run over with its guts hanging out a was healed, he said he actually hseen the dogs body skin tissue lace itself back together, guts go back and the dog jumps up completely well again. This is where I learned about the things I stated this tread about.
That's the state of the union.