Post by loverofall on Sept 6, 2010 14:51:41 GMT -5
My dream keeps getting better as I work through habits of control and giving up distractions, health, relationships and finances keep getting better. I can see why most people never change because the path is through the pain not around it. Creating space to allow feelings to bubble up and weaken is key and then taking on the next wall and letting more feelings and fear arise. Like anything you get better at it.
Like I have said before, I don't really care about a "final understanding". The practices and books have been an amazing resource on internal change. I can see how when we are creating regret or anxiety by thought that the quickest way to drop it is to ask who is worried or who is regretful. It makes me laugh at times. The related feelings dissolve quicker. Opening to those feelings is the next step. Anyway, its definitely opening my heart more and more and I can take being uncomfortable more and more. In the end, I can see how all distractions are used to control feelings and for those people say there is nothing to do I say bullpoop. It is much more easier to be present and to let go and to forgive. I am sure you would see the change in my brain if there were scans. Meditation is now looked forward too instead of dreaded and yoga is a pure delight as I wake up. Its getting uncomfortable to be in the mind more and more.
I experienced a very unfair personal attack this weekend and thoughts of rebuttal and very strong feelings arose like a tornado. only by questioning those feelings and breathing did I stop saying things. Now boy did the heart beat and the head tighten. I just sat there watching the heart pound away using every little trick to not react to the dream and to take my consciousness to the strong sensations in my body. It was a fascinating experience but there was some deep change going on.
I agree the more we can rest in awareness or non-conceptually the better, but I think many mind bodies need practices to ripen. On the other hand I can also see where if you always need to do something the mind will want to turn it into a goal.
The dream gets so good at times lately I get lost in it. I could see how if the dream is very good, people would have no interest in this path. I also see where the mind is identifying with the achievements and becoming more. Oh well, what a trip.
Like I have said before, I don't really care about a "final understanding". The practices and books have been an amazing resource on internal change. I can see how when we are creating regret or anxiety by thought that the quickest way to drop it is to ask who is worried or who is regretful. It makes me laugh at times. The related feelings dissolve quicker. Opening to those feelings is the next step. Anyway, its definitely opening my heart more and more and I can take being uncomfortable more and more. In the end, I can see how all distractions are used to control feelings and for those people say there is nothing to do I say bullpoop. It is much more easier to be present and to let go and to forgive. I am sure you would see the change in my brain if there were scans. Meditation is now looked forward too instead of dreaded and yoga is a pure delight as I wake up. Its getting uncomfortable to be in the mind more and more.
I experienced a very unfair personal attack this weekend and thoughts of rebuttal and very strong feelings arose like a tornado. only by questioning those feelings and breathing did I stop saying things. Now boy did the heart beat and the head tighten. I just sat there watching the heart pound away using every little trick to not react to the dream and to take my consciousness to the strong sensations in my body. It was a fascinating experience but there was some deep change going on.
I agree the more we can rest in awareness or non-conceptually the better, but I think many mind bodies need practices to ripen. On the other hand I can also see where if you always need to do something the mind will want to turn it into a goal.
The dream gets so good at times lately I get lost in it. I could see how if the dream is very good, people would have no interest in this path. I also see where the mind is identifying with the achievements and becoming more. Oh well, what a trip.
