Post by synapticrythms on May 18, 2010 20:45:30 GMT -5
This is more of a sharing of the peculiar feelings that have accompanied breaking away from thought. I know that I have found the experience of others to be very helpful along my journey. I am hoping to just share a little of the experiences I am going through and see if others have had these same feelings along their path, and I am interested in hearing about similar experiences.
I have noticed that in my least "my" state I can feel a certain opening in the heart region. What lies beyond feels vast yet intimate beyond words. This began about a year and a half ago with me. What used to be the worst pain of grief (located in the same region) is now a welcome "hole" within me. The opening of it was incredibly disturbing and at times painful. I felt like I wanted to come out of my own skin. Now it sometimes feels uncomfortable, especially when the energy gets too intense.
I have noticed when this "hole" is completely open in me, that "I" have a tendency to disappear far back within "myself" to an almost pure observational viewpoint. It is during these times that manifestation or synchronous events speed up to an almost minute by minute occurrence. I have also noticed that breathing during these times will be very slow and regular, like bellows. I also feel carried rather than "me" pushing out into the world. Life becomes incredibly easy. I do the same things, meet the same people, yet people have commented that they sometimes cannot talk to me in the same manner as they normally would talk to me. It is not scary... simply a different way of interacting with the world. I do not feel "gone," merely immensely quiet internally and open to circumstance.
While in this state, nothing surprises me, and I have no attachment to any occurrences... it comes merely as a matter of course. I feel very matter of fact about everything. When I "wake up" or "get back to bodily state" from this other state, I am amazed and sometimes frightened by the intensity of it and the rapid change of events that has sometimes occurred. I have just a passing intellectual curiosity about this state, and I wondered if anyone else has experienced it.
Some of the other physical... or non-physical to physical "symptoms" or states are immense physical energy (especially when boosted by storms or other natural events), very low physical energy (sleeping a lot or being in a dreamy, half-awake state, especially when I am getting ready to throw off another bundle of misconception), knowing states (where I am absolutely positive of events and their occurrence in regular, logical, sequential steps), being able to instantly ascertain where someone is coming from (especially emotionally - sometimes I can feel their emotional force), and actually seeing the plasticity or malleability of the world like it is a movie set.
These are all baubles on the path... trinkets of ability that I am sure could be developed or whatever. I am just curious if anyone else has developed these... dare I call them... symptoms.
I have noticed that in my least "my" state I can feel a certain opening in the heart region. What lies beyond feels vast yet intimate beyond words. This began about a year and a half ago with me. What used to be the worst pain of grief (located in the same region) is now a welcome "hole" within me. The opening of it was incredibly disturbing and at times painful. I felt like I wanted to come out of my own skin. Now it sometimes feels uncomfortable, especially when the energy gets too intense.
I have noticed when this "hole" is completely open in me, that "I" have a tendency to disappear far back within "myself" to an almost pure observational viewpoint. It is during these times that manifestation or synchronous events speed up to an almost minute by minute occurrence. I have also noticed that breathing during these times will be very slow and regular, like bellows. I also feel carried rather than "me" pushing out into the world. Life becomes incredibly easy. I do the same things, meet the same people, yet people have commented that they sometimes cannot talk to me in the same manner as they normally would talk to me. It is not scary... simply a different way of interacting with the world. I do not feel "gone," merely immensely quiet internally and open to circumstance.
While in this state, nothing surprises me, and I have no attachment to any occurrences... it comes merely as a matter of course. I feel very matter of fact about everything. When I "wake up" or "get back to bodily state" from this other state, I am amazed and sometimes frightened by the intensity of it and the rapid change of events that has sometimes occurred. I have just a passing intellectual curiosity about this state, and I wondered if anyone else has experienced it.
Some of the other physical... or non-physical to physical "symptoms" or states are immense physical energy (especially when boosted by storms or other natural events), very low physical energy (sleeping a lot or being in a dreamy, half-awake state, especially when I am getting ready to throw off another bundle of misconception), knowing states (where I am absolutely positive of events and their occurrence in regular, logical, sequential steps), being able to instantly ascertain where someone is coming from (especially emotionally - sometimes I can feel their emotional force), and actually seeing the plasticity or malleability of the world like it is a movie set.
These are all baubles on the path... trinkets of ability that I am sure could be developed or whatever. I am just curious if anyone else has developed these... dare I call them... symptoms.
