Post by Hamsa on Jan 24, 2010 3:33:28 GMT -5
Greetings,
This discussion forum is most interesting. Glad to have found it.
I believe that I have acquired and listened to a very good master speak on the subject for over 9 years, but in terms of practice, I believe I am yet to begin. I go to the abode of the master and stay there for a period, I believe that I understand what he speaks but when I get home, its all overshadowed by old mind habits.
In one of posts here, I read that many of us miss the very thing that we are seeking because or inspite of it being all around us at all times in one continuum, looking instead for the abnormal and mistaking that alone to be its manifestation. This is true of me.
My challenges lie within and at home, and I am finding it most difficult to hold on to the path of progress and upliftment. Being able to share experiences with such a great group would, I believe, help me keep engaged.
I quit working for money a long time back. Now I take pleasure in reading and listening. To rise above the mundane and sedentariness, desultoriness of the mind is my effort. Gripped with self-doubt, tossed around in the tempest of emotions, I am seeking my calling in this existence.
I am guided - but I take the words lightly as I think “let me finish enjoying this much and then I will let go of my desires”, my ego says, “oh, everything is all perfect – what is the need to change?” so I remain inactive and withdrawing.
I wrote and re-wrote this a few times before I could post thinking whether this post will be welcome, whether I will be welcome with all the negative notes I am posing – I would rather I did not post at all. But, I am sure I would enjoy the interchange and learn from those I see are quite advanced.
I salute to you all, for my experience is that it is quite rare to find people interested in this subject.
This discussion forum is most interesting. Glad to have found it.
I believe that I have acquired and listened to a very good master speak on the subject for over 9 years, but in terms of practice, I believe I am yet to begin. I go to the abode of the master and stay there for a period, I believe that I understand what he speaks but when I get home, its all overshadowed by old mind habits.
In one of posts here, I read that many of us miss the very thing that we are seeking because or inspite of it being all around us at all times in one continuum, looking instead for the abnormal and mistaking that alone to be its manifestation. This is true of me.
My challenges lie within and at home, and I am finding it most difficult to hold on to the path of progress and upliftment. Being able to share experiences with such a great group would, I believe, help me keep engaged.
I quit working for money a long time back. Now I take pleasure in reading and listening. To rise above the mundane and sedentariness, desultoriness of the mind is my effort. Gripped with self-doubt, tossed around in the tempest of emotions, I am seeking my calling in this existence.
I am guided - but I take the words lightly as I think “let me finish enjoying this much and then I will let go of my desires”, my ego says, “oh, everything is all perfect – what is the need to change?” so I remain inactive and withdrawing.
I wrote and re-wrote this a few times before I could post thinking whether this post will be welcome, whether I will be welcome with all the negative notes I am posing – I would rather I did not post at all. But, I am sure I would enjoy the interchange and learn from those I see are quite advanced.
I salute to you all, for my experience is that it is quite rare to find people interested in this subject.
Well at least we're in this together huh?