Half way through a lifetime of trying to improve ourselves, some of us notice that we are painting ourselves into a corner. It is a task which can never be satisfactorily completed. We find that our ego (or idea we cling to of who we are) is planted squarely in the middle of the remaining portion that would be eradicated The question is, can I (the ego) acknowledge this, and gracefully leave the scene even if it means tarnishing the lustre of my colorful reputation which is still drying?
Zen tried to warn us that the floor never needed painting from the start. Now that we’re in a corner, we begin to realize the wisdom of inaction. Some would call this “insight”—and continue painting until their ignor-ance forced choice upon them. But some few will realize the nature of what they have realized, and will surrender, will let go of their compulsion to emerge with an intact ego and an ideal outcome.
The sooner we awaken to the true situation, and surrender to it, the less “touching up” we will be in a position to do.