A shift?

[souley]

So something happened about 3 days ago. I was home having a cold (still do) and lying in bed, half sleeping. When I woke up, I felt slightly more at peace then usual in some way I didn't quite recognize. Upon further examination I concluded that I was a bit more satisfied, peaceful, and joyful then usual. But nothing extraordinary at all. I noticed that somehow the sense of self seems lost, yet everything is about exactly the same, so it is very hard to tell. The difference is hardly noticeable, yet fundamental. It is like the relation to stuff has changed on some deeper level, but everything is very ordinary. I can't quite get myself to get upset over things, they just kind of.. slip. Need for defending and resisting has somehow diminished or just vanished. To sum up, life just got a bit simpler, all of a sudden.

For the first time on this journey, I am absolutely convinced that I had nothing to do with it. I have no idea what happened, it has happened on some level that the "me" does not operate on.

Yet this is so mundane and not overwhelming in any way. No bliss, no "I AM THAT" insights, nothing cool at all. Enlightenment? I don't know. But it is now obvious, that I cannot get enlightened since I simply can't do anything.

A bit interesting might be that I did The Work on a lot of beliefs the previous week, mostly just regular stuff that I was upset about, but among them was "I am" and "I should not die". Pretty fundamental concepts, working with them was really intense

[peanut]

Yes..Souley i relate..had that happen to me this summer...one day drinking coffee....the realization came...i am not doing this..no doer...the body stretched and 'i" was not doing it.