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Post by mamza on Sept 14, 2013 2:42:35 GMT -5
Ahead is a shelf of clouds making everything seem dark as I'm driving down the highway. But then the sun rises directly into all three of my mirrors and makes a tunnel of intense, golden light as a super funky Daft Punk song comes on. Then I'm just stupidly happy because funk is the silliest, most gratifying feeling when you don't expect it. I was so happy to be there, stuck in traffic, in that spot right then. There was literally nowhere else in the world I would have rather been. Nothing could've topped that in that moment.
It was so fun for so long and when it was done I didn't even notice. Which showed me, yet again, that whatever that state is isn't brought on by anyone or anything. It doesn't happen to anyone or anything. There is just that, until that's seemingly something else. It reminds me of a kaleidoscope shifting around until all the images line up into one picture, then all the mirror images split as it continues to spin around.
So now there's a question: how can I make it happen more frequently?
To which I have answer: I can't. It's clearly not caused by me in the first place, so the idea that I can somehow affect or influence it is flawed. But because I can remember how it felt and describe it as best I can, it feels like it happened to me, regardless of my knowing otherwise.
Otherwise speaking, what I'm describing is a state. It is temporary, even if there is an absence of all else during that period. I cannot control it because it has nothing to do with me, so attempting to bring that state about at all times isn't worth bothering with. I do, however, feel that state to be 'better' in a way, and so I strive for it regardless--although said efforts are substantially less intense than before.
So now I'm sitting here knowing that what I seek is impossible to achieve. And all that's left is to accept that, but because I don't want to I keep seeking a way around it. Which is silly. I can be pretty dumb sometimes.
Feel free to discuss, not that I have control over whether you do or not. For some reason I occasionally feel compelled to write things. Maybe it's just a story to believe, like Q suggests. Worth consideration.
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Post by laughter on Sept 14, 2013 4:40:32 GMT -5
the utility of futility
on a sunny day
there ain't no way
to see the say
nor run away
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Post by ???????? ???????????? on Sept 14, 2013 4:42:46 GMT -5
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Post by laughter on Sept 14, 2013 4:44:31 GMT -5
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Post by ???????? ???????????? on Sept 14, 2013 4:50:49 GMT -5
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Post by Deleted on Sept 14, 2013 6:10:55 GMT -5
2th and hopefully last thread sucks btw dogs do that, to get stringy bits of turds off their arses, or when they have worms, usually do it on the grass.  |
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Post by silver on Sept 14, 2013 8:26:29 GMT -5
2th and hopefully last thread sucks btw I usually tend to agree with you, but not this time...btw, 2 posts don't exactly quite make 'a thread'. I think you should use these lovely gifs in some other far more absurd threads that go on interminably around here, just sayin'. I think you should mix it up, using gifs with MEN doing inane things for a switch, huh? |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 14, 2013 9:24:06 GMT -5
2th and hopefully last thread sucks btw I usually tend to agree with you, but not this time...btw, 2 posts don't exactly quite make 'a thread'. I think you should use these lovely gifs in some other far more absurd threads that go on interminably around here, just sayin'. I think you should mix it up, using gifs with MEN doing inane things for a switch, huh? YES!... we need more male idiots on show here in ST. Like Males dangly bits stuck in vacumn cleaners... Do Men do more weird things than Women for money or fame. |
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Post by Deleted on Sept 14, 2013 9:34:50 GMT -5
Ahead is a shelf of clouds... For some reason I occasionally feel compelled to write things.  |
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Post by silver on Sept 14, 2013 10:01:31 GMT -5
I just checked that link, alfio. Yes, she's amazing. Dying to read her books, especially 'Top of My Lungs' (which includes an essay called How Poetry Saved My Life. Thx you lil sweetheart, you.  |
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Post by ???????? ???????????? on Sept 14, 2013 11:14:02 GMT -5
I usually tend to agree with you, but not this time...btw, 2 posts don't exactly quite make 'a thread'. I think you should use these lovely gifs in some other far more absurd threads that go on interminably around here, just sayin'. I think you should mix it up, using gifs with MEN doing inane things for a switch, huh?  |
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Post by silence on Sept 14, 2013 11:18:47 GMT -5
Ahead is a shelf of clouds making everything seem dark as I'm driving down the highway. But then the sun rises directly into all three of my mirrors and makes a tunnel of intense, golden light as a super funky Daft Punk song comes on. Then I'm just stupidly happy because funk is the silliest, most gratifying feeling when you don't expect it. I was so happy to be there, stuck in traffic, in that spot right then. There was literally nowhere else in the world I would have rather been. Nothing could've topped that in that moment. It was so fun for so long and when it was done I didn't even notice. Which showed me, yet again, that whatever that state is isn't brought on by anyone or anything. It doesn't happen to anyone or anything. There is just that, until that's seemingly something else. It reminds me of a kaleidoscope shifting around until all the images line up into one picture, then all the mirror images split as it continues to spin around. So now there's a question: how can I make it happen more frequently? To which I have answer: I can't. It's clearly not caused by me in the first place, so the idea that I can somehow affect or influence it is flawed. But because I can remember how it felt and describe it as best I can, it feels like it happened to me, regardless of my knowing otherwise. Otherwise speaking, what I'm describing is a state. It is temporary, even if there is an absence of all else during that period. I cannot control it because it has nothing to do with me, so attempting to bring that state about at all times isn't worth bothering with. I do, however, feel that state to be 'better' in a way, and so I strive for it regardless--although said efforts are substantially less intense than before. So now I'm sitting here knowing that what I seek is impossible to achieve. And all that's left is to accept that, but because I don't want to I keep seeking a way around it. Which is silly. I can be pretty dumb sometimes. Feel free to discuss, not that I have control over whether you do or not. For some reason I occasionally feel compelled to write things. Maybe it's just a story to believe, like Q suggests. Worth consideration. This is where becoming truthful with yourself becomes incredibly important. Is spirituality a way to get high without any drugs or is it about discovering what's true. |
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Post by silence on Sept 14, 2013 11:19:36 GMT -5
2th and hopefully last thread sucks btw I usually tend to agree with you, but not this time...btw, 2 posts don't exactly quite make 'a thread'. I think you should use these lovely gifs in some other far more absurd threads that go on interminably around here, just sayin'. I think you should mix it up, using gifs with MEN doing inane things for a switch, huh? Why are you always focused on gender? |
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Post by silver on Sept 14, 2013 11:24:26 GMT -5
I usually tend to agree with you, but not this time...btw, 2 posts don't exactly quite make 'a thread'. I think you should use these lovely gifs in some other far more absurd threads that go on interminably around here, just sayin'. I think you should mix it up, using gifs with MEN doing inane things for a switch, huh? Why are you always focused on gender? He started it! I just happened to notice is all.  The one who is always making it look like he's so with it regarding race, bigotry, etc. isn't all together re the gender 'issue', no biggie to me, I just noticed like I said. |
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Post by silence on Sept 14, 2013 11:28:11 GMT -5
Why are you always focused on gender? He started it! I just happened to notice is all. The one who is always making it look like he's so with it regarding race, bigotry, etc. isn't all together re the gender 'issue', no biggie to me, I just noticed like I said. Who started what? |
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