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Post by james on Jul 2, 2013 14:03:39 GMT -5
look it .. for several years I was one of the biggest "E-haters" here. I thought he was a smug, wanna-be guru, who spoke down to people, and never would budge an inch. It drove me fricking crazy .. mostly because of how serious I am about this journey, and because "his way" of doing things didn't match "my way" of thinking how it should be. I wrote nasty comments, deleted my accounts, tried to stay away .. but couldn't. But, deep down, I knew I was the one full of sh!t, and that is a difficult thing to admit. that trauma whipped my a$$. and one day it was just gone. Yeah, I'd say I'm grateful for anything that gets one's goat. It indicates work - of a certain nature - that can be done. Giraffes, in E's terminology. Projections, stories, ego. If I think E's full of sh1t, I'm full of sh1t. I'm looking in the mirror. I recently had a small ego problem with E. I have recently just kicked addiction to porn and masturbation (a very strange journey that was), and mentioned it to E in passing since he asked why I was absent from the board. His reply, to my ego, was pretty much that he knew all about so-called-addiction and it was all just silliness. My immediate reaction was (subconsciously) 'how dare he try to diminish this monumental personal hurdle I've just overcome? what the hell does he know about addiction anyway?'. 10 seconds later I'm thanking him in my mind for showing me that bit of my subconscious that is clinging onto a story (uniqueness, specialness, all sorts of connotations there). By the way if anyone is having problems with porn/masturbation/escort/stripper/sex type addiction, feel free to PM me. Maybe I can help, because I've been there. Edit: Converted sentences to speak purely from my own experience. I can't speak for anybody else. :-)
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Post by Beingist on Jul 2, 2013 14:11:11 GMT -5
look it .. for several years I was one of the biggest "E-haters" here. I thought he was a smug, wanna-be guru, who spoke down to people, and never would budge an inch. It drove me fricking crazy .. mostly because of how serious I am about this journey, and because "his way" of doing things didn't match "my way" of thinking how it should be. I wrote nasty comments, deleted my accounts, tried to stay away .. but couldn't. But, deep down, I knew I was the one full of sh!t, and that is a difficult thing to admit. that trauma whipped my a$$. and one day it was just gone. I'm pretty focused on my journey, too. I don't hate, e. But I can tell he doesn't like it anymore than other's do when he receives what he gives out at times in return. Who would? I sincerely doubt he practices this sh!t in his offline life. Yeah, I can rez with this. I don't hate him, either. I actually think he's quite cool, when he seems to go out of his way to get under peeps' skin, especially mine, only to complain about 'abused' he is, when he gets poo thrown back at him. I would say this was hypocritical, but in E's case, I don't think it's as hypocritical as it is the mere consequences of some sort of odd Messiah complex. But, in the end, I still don't know jack. It toughens me up, so it's not all so bad, overall. Quintessentially, he's rather like a Marine drill instructor, especially driven to reduce your self-image to ever lower levels, until you realize that you are literally nothing. Thing is, I've been through boot camp, and realized long ago that it's just a head game. Such is his specialty.
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Post by arisha.. on Jul 2, 2013 14:19:22 GMT -5
, masturbating and farting is something so hilarious on this forum! Isn't it,............. guys? It is not absurd, not stupid, but nice. BTW, I don't care what is there in your imagination about me. Say my thanks to the guy, your spiritual King, who helped pull me here where I am now, let him enjoy it!
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:29:22 GMT -5
I'm pretty focused on my journey, too. I don't hate, e. But I can tell he doesn't like it anymore than other's do when he receives what he gives out at times in return. Who would? I sincerely doubt he practices this sh!t in his offline life. Yeah, I can rez with this. I don't hate him, either. I actually think he's quite cool, when he seems to go out of his way to get under peeps' skin, especially mine, only to complain about 'abused' he is, when he gets poo thrown back at him. I would say this was hypocritical, but in E's case, I don't think it's as hypocritical as it is the mere consequences of some sort of odd Messiah complex. But, in the end, I still don't know jack. It toughens me up, so it's not all so bad, overall. Quintessentially, he's rather like a Marine drill instructor, especially driven to reduce your self-image to ever lower levels, until you realize that you are literally nothing. Thing is, I've been through boot camp, and realized long ago that it's just a head game. Such is his specialty. Yeah, boot camp.... geezus. You know, he should just get over himself and buy a Harley. Sell the minivan, and buy a Harley.
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Post by Beingist on Jul 2, 2013 14:33:13 GMT -5
, masturbating and farting is something so hilarious on this forum! Isn't it,............. guys? It is not absurd, not stupid, but nice. BTW, I don't care what is there in your imagination about me. Say my thanks to the guy, your spiritual King, who helped pull me here where I am now, let him enjoy it! Arisha, is that really you? You never know around here--Question (among others) likes to come in under other monikers, so you never know who you're really responding to, y'know?
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Post by silver on Jul 2, 2013 14:35:51 GMT -5
Aww, seems Arish has decided to delete her account.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:38:46 GMT -5
Yeah, boot camp.... geezus. yeah, I did 13 weeks at Parris Island right out of high school .. talk about a crash course in seriousness and perseverance .. yikes. good stuff though, those lessons learned stuck around for quite a while .. no matter how difficult a situation became, I would always look back and say 'well I made it through that, I can make it through anything'. btw - that wasn't arisha, it was me d.icking around. hehe
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:40:42 GMT -5
wild animals fart too.
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Post by Beingist on Jul 2, 2013 14:40:50 GMT -5
Aww, seems Arish has decided to delete her account. Yeah, look for a barrage of sock puppets from certain individuals prone to that sort of thing, in this un-moderated section. I expected Reefs to be the first one to take advantage of that, but I often forget about Q. He's more... surreptitious.
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Post by Beingist on Jul 2, 2013 14:41:53 GMT -5
Yeah, boot camp.... geezus. yeah, I did 13 weeks at Parris Island right out of high school .. talk about a crash course in seriousness and perseverance .. yikes. good stuff though, those lessons learned stuck around for quite a while .. no matter how difficult a situation became, I would always look back and say 'well I made it through that, I can make it through anything'. btw - that wasn't arisha, it was me d.icking around. hehe Thanks for letting us know, farmer. Honesty goes a long way. Edit: Oh, and I used to think that if I could make it through boot camp, I could make it through anything. Then, I ran into Enigma.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:46:45 GMT -5
yeah, I did 13 weeks at Parris Island right out of high school .. talk about a crash course in seriousness and perseverance .. yikes. good stuff though, those lessons learned stuck around for quite a while .. no matter how difficult a situation became, I would always look back and say 'well I made it through that, I can make it through anything'. Yeah, me too. btw - that wasn't arisha, it was me d.icking around. hehe I'd ask the obvious question, but who cares...
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:47:00 GMT -5
I had every intention of fessing up to it B, but James's story (and Top of course ;-) made me think of old risha. lol
not a 'sock puppet" btw, just hilarity ;-)
the two dots at the end of her name should have clued you in that it wasn't actually her.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:52:08 GMT -5
I'd ask the obvious question, but who cares... what's the obvious question?
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Post by laughter on Jul 2, 2013 14:56:18 GMT -5
look it .. for several years I was one of the biggest "E-haters" here. I thought he was a smug, wanna-be guru, who spoke down to people, and never would budge an inch. It drove me fricking crazy .. mostly because of how serious I am about this journey, and because "his way" of doing things didn't match "my way" of thinking how it should be. I wrote nasty comments, deleted my accounts, tried to stay away .. but couldn't. But, deep down, I knew I was the one full of sh!t, and that is a difficult thing to admit. that trauma whipped my a$$. and one day it was just gone. My Enigversations were a bit less vitriolic but it was interesting watching the reactions arise and I think he has a list of nearly every single surprise available for a mind that has at least caught a glimpse and every time he'd roll one out I's like "whhaaaat?" but then I'd have to think on it and ... well, you know the drill. It's obvious that people want to talk to the guy. Some of these people know the score to some degree or another ... that is to say that they are conscious of why they are drawn to the conversation. Others. Not. One thing's fore sure -- if yer mad at 'em then it's an issue of personal identification involved and I'll give ya's another hint .... it ain't E's! It'll all spin out the way it spins out.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2013 14:57:59 GMT -5
yeah, I did 13 weeks at Parris Island right out of high school .. talk about a crash course in seriousness and perseverance .. yikes. good stuff though, those lessons learned stuck around for quite a while .. no matter how difficult a situation became, I would always look back and say 'well I made it through that, I can make it through anything'. Yeah, me too. 2nd Battalion - 1978 You?
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