New Experience Breaking Through...

[lightmystic]

Hello Everyone,

Something amazing is happening that I would to share, and would enjoy exploring with anyone who has questions about it or recognizes this experience in themselves...

This is quite hard to talk about because it is so new...

So let me build up:

I

There is the individuality going away, and there is big, deep, black, safe, velvety Nothingness. That is the existence before time/space. The structure of Creation starts to form, layers and levels at a time as the Creation churns into motion, comes into time/space.

Now there is both this Light churning of Creation and this friendly Black Nothingness that contains it all.


II

Then, after the individual has dissappeared completely, then there is crystallized Nothingness become individual. This is the individual formerly codenamed as Light Mystic. We can call him that again Individualized Nothingness. Just here. In his chair. He is the one that experiences all this. And yet, the truth also experiences itself with or without an individual named LM being anywhere in particular. But it's also true. LM is experiencing this. LM is generating the universe, LM IS the universe and the whole universe is literally LM's perception. At each moment, LM preceives part of it with his physical senses and perceives all of it with his subtler senses, although it's every bit as vivid...

So there is the whole universe experiencing itself, and the universe is who and what I am.

And there is the individual LM experiencing all Creation coming fom HIM.


III

And these things are somehow connected by golden light threads, by crystalline structures, by Awareness, by something more, by dual paradoxical realities....


IV

Then there is the knowing, the perception, the realization, that each part of reality, each piece that is divided, IS the whole thing. The whole thing is reflected in every part. As if each part is a perfect jewel that has the secret of Creation, and Creation itself is that same jewel on my a much larger scale. For it contains all of it.

And this exists in both simultaneous paradoxical realities.

Creation sees itself refracted, reflected, in every particle of existence. Each part of Creation screams in it's infinity that it is the one! It's energy is infinite, limitless, and it's joy knows know bounds.

At the same time, in chair somewhere, LM sees the same thing. LM sees that everything he views is made up of these perfect Jewels. Each Jewel a microcosm of all Creation. A macrocosm of all Creation. All of Creation synthesized into a snow globe for LM to hold, while the huge snowglobe of Creation surrounds LM. And the Universe watches. And Creation watches. And beyond Creation watches. Watches LM doing this, watching him watch this...


V

Then there is a crystallizing...LM watches the universe, and the unverse watches LM, and they seep into each other. LM feels like the universe is getting smaller, or everything is getting bigger....LM doesn't know.

The universe comes to meet him. The universe comes to BE him. Not as crystallized Nothingness as before. Not as a crystallization of the infinite in an infinite individualized world of crystallized Wholeness, but as something more integrated....

The universe IS LM's perception. Creation IS LM's perception. Big; small; how perception goes is Creation. The Awareness of the whole universe is contained in the pereception, the Jewels where each particle of the universe is contained within the pereception. The Individual of crystallized Nothingness is contained within the perception. Creation is contained within the perception, the Nothingness is contained within the perception. All layers and levels and relationships are there....

Wow.

and LM is awestruck. A dear in headlights. And he is struck by the car of the universe. It is the universe that strikes him - merging, Creation that strikes him - merging...

and he is no more.
and he is no less

than everything.

Individualized. Here. Now. = Everywhere, always. Edgeless.

[Morrie]

LM, seems like your experience is deepening and stabilizing. It sounds wonderful, but I regret it seems to be on a higher plane of spiritual development than I can even pretend to fully understand right now. But I appreciate you sharing your experience. FWIW, what you wrote reminded me of Franklin Merrell-Wolff's aphorisms:


Franklin Merrell-Wolff's 56 APHORISMS ON CONSCIOUSNESS WITHOUT-AN-OBJECT

1. Consciousness-without-an-object is.
2. Before objects were, Consciousness-without-an-object is.
3. Though objects seem to exist, Consciousness-without-an-object is.
4. When objects vanish, yet remaining through all unaffected, Consciousness-without- an-object is.
5. Outside of Consciousness-without-an-object nothing is.
6. Within the bosom of Consciousness-without-an-object lies the power of awareness that projects objects.
7. When objects are projected, the power of awareness as subject is presupposed, yet Consciousness-without-an-object remains unchanged.
8. When consciousness of objects is born, then, likewise, consciousness of absence of objects arises.
9. Consciousness of objects is the Universe.
10. Consciousness of absence of objects is Nirvana.
11. Within Consciousness-without-an-object lie both the Universe and Nirvana, yet to Consciousness-without-an-object these two are the same.
12. Within Consciousness-without-an-object lies the seed of Time.
13. When awareness cognizes Time then knowledge of Timelessness is born.
14. To be aware of Time is to be aware of the Universe, and to be aware of the Universe is to be aware of Time.
15. To realize Timelessness is to attain Nirvana.
16. But for Consciousness-without-an-object there is no difference between Time and Timelessness.
17. Within Consciousness-without-an-object lies the seed of the world-containing Space.
18. When awareness cognizes the world-containing Space then knowledge of the Spatial Void is born.
19. To be aware of the world-containing Space is to be aware of the Universe of Objects.
20. To realize the Spatial Void is to awaken to Nirvanic Consciousness.
21. But for Consciousness-without-an-object there is no difference between the world-containing Space and the Spatial Void.
22. Within Consciousness-without-an-object lies the Seed of Law.
23. When consciousness of objects is born the Law is invoked as a Force tending ever toward Equilibrium.
24. All objects exist as tensions within Consciousness-without-an-object that tend ever to flow into their own complements or others.
25. The ultimate effect of the flow of all objects into their complements is mutual cancellation in complete Equilibrium.
26. Consciousness of the field of tensions is the Universe.
27. Consciousness of Equilibrium is Nirvana.
28. But for Consciousness-without-an-object there is neither tension nor Equilibrium.
29. The state of tensions is the state of ever-becoming.
30. Ever-becoming is endless-dying.
31. So the state of consciousness of objects is a state of ever-renewing promises that pass into death at the moment of fulfillment.
32. Thus when consciousness is attached to objects the agony of birth and death never ceases.
33. In the state of Equilibrium where birth cancels death the deathless Bliss of Nirvana is realized.
34. But Consciousness-without-an-object is neither agony nor bliss.
35. Out of the Great Void, which is Consciousness-without-an-object, the Universe is creatively projected.
36. The Universe as experienced is the created negation that ever resists.
37. The creative act is bliss, the resistance, unending pain.
38. Endless resistance is the Universe of experience, the agony of crucifixion.
39. Ceaseless creativeness is Nirvana, the Bliss beyond human conceiving.
40. But for Consciousness-without-an-object there is neither creativeness nor resistance.
41. Ever-becoming and ever-ceasing-to-be are endless action.
42. When ever-becoming cancels the ever-ceasing-to-be then Rest is realized.
43. Ceaseless action is the Universe.
44. Unending Rest is Nirvana.
45. But Consciousness-without-an-object is neither Action nor Rest.
46. When consciousness is attached to objects it is restricted through the forms imposed by the world-containing Space, by Time, and by Law.
47. When consciousness is disengaged from objects, Liberation from the forms of the world-containing Space, of Time, and of Law is attained.
48. Attachment to objects is consciousness bound within the Universe.
49. Liberation from such attachment is the State of unlimited Nirvanic Freedom.
50. But Consciousness-without-an-object is neither bondage nor freedom.
51. Consciousness-without-an-object may be symbolized by a SPACE that is unaffected by the presence or absence of objects, for which there is neither Time nor Timelessness, neither a world-containing Space nor a Spatial Void, neither Tension nor Equilibrium, neither Resistance nor Creativeness, neither Agony nor Bliss, neither Action nor Rest, and neither Restriction nor Freedom.
52. As the GREAT SPACE is not to be identified with the Universe, so neither is It to be identified with any Self.
53. The GREAT SPACE is not God, but the comprehender of all Gods, as well as of all lesser creatures.
54. The GREAT SPACE, or Consciousness-without-an-object, is the Sole Reality upon which all objects and all selves depend and derive their existence.
55. The GREAT SPACE comprehends both the Path of the Universe and the Path of Nirvana.
56. Beside the GREAT SPACE there is none other.

[Peter]

Your grammar is holding together LM, which is a good sign.

Stay grounded. Sleep is good.

I'm happy for you. Stay in touch.

P

PS Morrie - very interesting post, thanks for that.

[lightmystic]

Hehe. Thanks Peter.

Actually, it's not overwhelming in the traditional sense. It's all somehow comfortably grounded...


It's the day to day situation, although there are still some "objections" to this new reality being worked out...but it actually makes more sense than the old one...

Feb 19, 2009 4:23:25 GMT -5 Peter said:

Your grammar is holding together LM, which is a good sign.

Stay grounded. Sleep is good.

I'm happy for you. Stay in touch.

P

PS Morrie - very interesting post, thanks for that.

[lightmystic]

Hey morrie,

Thanks for sharing that. Those are very nice aphorisms. It reminds me a little bit of the Shiva Sutras. Check them out if you haven't seen them, as they can enliven some amazing stuff in oneself...

Thanks again for sharing that!

Feb 18, 2009 14:46:40 GMT -5 Morrie said:

LM, seems like your experience is deepening and stabilizing. It sounds wonderful, but I regret it seems to be on a higher plane of spiritual development than I can even pretend to fully understand right now. But I appreciate you sharing your experience. FWIW, what you wrote reminded me of Franklin Merrell-Wolff's aphorisms:

[fear]

So LM is still there. If so then there is still an experience of self. LM has not disappeared into no self.

So this is not absolute, is it?

[lightmystic]

It's still the first experience listed. It's that more than ever. Everything else is just an elaboration of that same experience in seed form. Nothing has changed. It's that nothingness, that personlessness now more than it ever has been. And that personlessness is somehow intimately personal. So how to explain the paradox?

Mar 19, 2009 23:01:24 GMT -5 fear said:

So LM is still there. If so then there is still an experience of self. LM has not disappeared into no self.

So this is not absolute, is it?

[someNOTHING!]

Yes, very cool and well-conceived description LM, and a great list of aphorisms posted by Morrie to work through. Pointing pointing pointing.

For fun,

www.nasruddin.org/pages/stories/sweetest.html

[Peter]

Hi LM, well it's been just over a month since you posted about that experience. How do you feel about it now?

Just for interest, what where you doing when this experience came upon you? Also, what time of day was it?

Cheers,
Peter

[lightmystic]

Thanks SN. I appreciate that...

Mar 23, 2009 0:55:36 GMT -5 someNOTHING! said:

Yes, very cool and well-conceived description LM, and a great list of aphorisms posted by Morrie to work through. Pointing pointing pointing.

For fun,

www.nasruddin.org/pages/stories/sweetest.html

[lightmystic]

Well, as usual with breakthroughs like this, it has become much more normal and simple as it has a chance to sink in.

At this point something very new and beautiful has opened up, but it's too new to be able to talk about it. Perhaps I can share it when the words for it come to me if people want to hear it...

Mar 23, 2009 5:52:24 GMT -5 Peter said:

Hi LM, well it's been just over a month since you posted about that experience. How do you feel about it now?

Just for interest, what where you doing when this experience came upon you? Also, what time of day was it?

Cheers,
Peter