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Post by ivory on May 11, 2011 0:02:16 GMT -5
As time progresses I see certain patterns of thought changing. Or maybe certain patterns were there but not noticed. But lately what I've been noticing is that I never have any idea what to do. What I "should" be doing, etc. It's left me feeling very vulnerable, as if I didn't know myself... Hehe I notice that thoughts arise where I see people expressing their opinions about what should and shouldn't be done, or about what is right and wrong. Then I started wondering, "wait, if i know don't what to do, or what is right and wrong, how the hell do i know if anybody else knows what they're talking about." I find it both funny and interesting how seroiusly I've taken other peoples opinions. Now I see almost everyone as children because I know they don't know sh*t. It's all conditioning, BS perspectives and opinions, nothing solid. How the hell did I not see that before? It's been a while since I've felt good. But this latest epiphany has been extremely liberating. I feel like a kid again. Enjoying it while it lasts
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Post by sherry on May 11, 2011 1:44:28 GMT -5
It is liberating.... no 'shoulds' or 'shouldn'ts' !
wonderful
and yet, each opinion every bit as valuable (or useless) as any other
including the opinion that links with this perspective that the apparent i is viewing from......
all as it is
smiling.
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Post by souley on May 11, 2011 3:33:15 GMT -5
Well what annoys me is that people do not know that they do not know!!
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Post by sherry on May 11, 2011 4:16:04 GMT -5
who are these people who do not know that they do not know? !
no i, no people.
......only the interpretation from this perspective of the projected other
the almighty 'i' annoyed with the scapegoat 'other' ...
again
;-D
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Post by jazz on May 11, 2011 19:14:23 GMT -5
I can nod to this. I'm also noticing opinions and beliefs in other people and also I'm trying to participate in the game, but knowing underneath it all that it's all BS. In a way I guess this makes me feel superior to these other people but I am aware of it, so that's probably fine. Sometimes, tough, I wish I could just forget about all this non-duality and just be in the drama, but it's too late for that, haha. I'm gone and there's no way back. And that's fine too. Perhaps a little depressed..? I'm wondering about my ego. It's still in place, it's just not believed as much, but still feeling a need to feed it, just a little. I'm afraid I won't be interesting anymore, I'm afraid I won't be funny, I'm afraid I'll miss out on "stuff". Still, just moving along. Bought a ticket to India in December It's all good, I guess.
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Post by mamza on May 11, 2011 22:09:32 GMT -5
Fear leads to the dark side! Ha. Watching Star Wars for the first time since I was about 9. So good. But seriously, all that mind stuff about being funny and whatnot is easy to bypass by ATA. They do seem a bit more....powerful, I guess, because they're noticed a lot more. There's this idea that comes along and makes us sad or whatever, and we get caught on it so it perpetuates, but if you just experience it and let it pass, you'll be right as rain in no time!
Edit: Thinking on it, I have that same type of situation going on once in a while, but it always alleviates itself once I start to actually do something other than sit there and think about it.
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Post by souley on May 12, 2011 3:54:58 GMT -5
Yeah it's all good, and staying present / attending the actual shows this every time you test it. But until you trust that all the time, you will still go through this period of feeling like a misfit in society. Thats the way it has been for me anyway.. There was one period where I resented pretty much everything normal, but we know intuitively that it is not natural to do so, and as we investigate that, more and more of our beliefs will fall away, until eventually it's all gone, and we are what happens, and then those people will be seen for what they are. I don't know if it is correct to say, but for me it has seemed like there is a lot of pain coming out when we discover everything that's not what we believed. When we label that, it might seem like depression, but it's just a label, and to check whats really going on try attending the actual again That might not relieve the pain, but labeling it depression is a little trick to try to explain away the pain, and not facing it. Attending to it is facing up to it, and that is the way through!
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