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Post by andytheone on May 5, 2011 10:46:21 GMT -5
hi everyone ive been a learker on hear for a while and searching for something deaper for about 4 years and now it seems like my questions are answering themselves but at the same time i seem to be lossing my mind or should i say lossing touch with reality we are told is real
i am just looking at people and they are all seem so consumed by the play out there and being theyer charicter that they dont look up at anything
ive come to the understanding that there is no truth outside of me, that i must evaluate everything ive been told until i get to my truth
asking yourself who am i or what is actually going on has caused me to change my belifes and this has come in the form of me destroying the person that was hear befor,
all the ideas that hold the world together seem to be held together by sticky tap, concepts of money, religion seem like made up storys to keep you distracted, or give you a quick fix answer to who am i
my conclusions so far
the play out there is fake seems like it is there for the I to experience itself (expanded further the universe is experienceing itself whatever it can to know it is alive)
i dont think i actually exist i can sometimes watch myself and everything keeps going but im not the one whos doing it, it all just seems to happen
and i know this might sound strange but there seems to be a I in hear looking out but theres something else looking through that conciouseness as well
so either im gone and need sometherapy or im getting there any ideas
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Post by onehandclapping on May 5, 2011 11:52:31 GMT -5
Sounds like you are experiencing something which may be nothing. Nothing to the mind that is. You might try reading the book Collision With The Infinite by Susan Segal. I think that is the authors name. Right title though. She experienced a similar thing where she just disappeared. It might give you better insight than any of us can give ya. I say that and then Enigma or Zendancer will drop this amazing thing. Hahaha. Regardless, just sit back and enjoy the show. Remember there is no one experiencing it and then the uncomfortable feelings will subside eventually. Welcome to the "real" world! Hahaha.
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Post by ivory on May 5, 2011 12:39:03 GMT -5
all the ideas that hold the world together seem to be held together by sticky tap, concepts of money, religion seem like made up storys to keep you distracted, or give you a quick fix answer to who am i Yeah, it's a trip. The whole backbone of society is based on the assumption that we are separate. The very nature of society keeps people bound in fear and slaves to the matrix. Talks about money, religion, etc.: www.youtube.com/watch?v=WauCw5VQgIY&feature=relatedThis one talks about the false assumption of separation: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4UYBeCt3-k&feature=related |
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Post by unveilable on May 5, 2011 18:22:55 GMT -5
Beautiful sounds familiar! I like this "ive come to the understanding that there is no truth outside of me, that i must evaluate everything ive been told until i get to my truth" Yes I echo 1hc in saying ZD, Enigma and a few others will surely have some insight on this. When this happened to me I choose what in Joseph Campbell speak was a 'refusal of the call'. In other words I became a drunk for 25 years trying to reverse what was seen. Avoid that one! I'm happy to hear someone else talk about this.  |
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Post by souley on May 5, 2011 18:29:01 GMT -5
You are not losing you mind, there is nothing to lose. Throw yourself right out there!!! No one, absolutely no one, knows Sh*t about anything, so all the stories is absolute *** and you HAVE to stop investing in it!! And yeah I'm preaching to myself here. See you on the other side!
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Post by enigma on May 5, 2011 20:26:35 GMT -5
"i dont think i actually exist i can sometimes watch myself and everything keeps going but im not the one whos doing it, it all just seems to happen"
More to the point, what you think you are doesn't exist and isn't doing it. You can't actually declare that you don't exist. That would be difficult to defend. Hehe.
"and i know this might sound strange but there seems to be a I in hear looking out but theres something else looking through that conciouseness as well"
Yes, there's 'something' aware that something is looking out. How far away from you is that?
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Post by andytheone on May 6, 2011 10:39:47 GMT -5
Yes, there's 'something' aware that something is looking out. How far away from you is that?
it has felt like it is just behind my conciouseness where i am at zero inches , sandwiched on the backside of it,
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Post by enigma on May 6, 2011 12:46:16 GMT -5
Yes, there's 'something' aware that something is looking out. How far away from you is that? it has felt like it is just behind my conciouseness where i am at zero inches , sandwiched on the backside of it, Interesting construction, but you are the one saying you are aware of this stuff. Don't you have to be the one who is aware of that in order for you to be aware of that? Hehe. How can the one who is aware of that be behind something, sandwiched on some backside? What other place are you that you can be aware of the one who is aware of stuff, and wouldn't that actually make you the one who is aware of everything? It's not something you have to figure out. It's something you have to let collapse. It's way too simple and obvious to figure out. |
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Post by smokey on May 6, 2011 17:29:04 GMT -5
The fluttering back and forth between pure consciousness and thinking is like a table lamp with a loose wire. Most humans prefer the lamp to be off, so they fool with the wire using mental, emotional and physical diversions.
At a certain point, a human prefers the light to be on, but the flickering is not under his total control. Even when he is able to hold the light on, it flickers off and on as thoughts come and go.
It is at this point when he is able to experience pure consciousness and contemplate this experience in his mind.
But, since the mind is doomed, this is just a passing fancy... another diversion.
I got a knife, a soldering gun, solder, flux and tape sitting right here. Now I am....
"Waiting For the Electrician, or Someone Like Him"
"Are you alone?"
"Yes."
"No. We are here with you."
"Oh, I see what you mean. No..."
"Yes. How many are we?"
"Here? Three."
"You don't want to count the elevator boy?"
"Yes."
"Three or four?"
"Uhhh, four."
"But, of course, there's your family."
"But, their not traveling with me."
"Where?"
"Where I'm going."
"But you're here.... How many?"
"Four. With the elevator boy."
"Ahhh, he is in your family."
"No. Here"
"And here we are."
. Edit: Double article. Thanks Zoe.
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Post by teetown on Jul 14, 2011 9:45:55 GMT -5
Yeah I want to not-exist too!
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