the emptiness of the world

[angela]

funny, my copy of that book "the enlightened heart" will be here in the mail monday.



it's clear that to "know" is to find meaning, or meaninglessness. to pick sides. i see that. yet, i also feel drawn to just honoring this disillusion, for right now, while the feelings are real. it's the first time i've felt them, the first time i've seen this clearly, about the world being empty.

i know it's no more real than any other story, but for right now there seems to be a draw to just witness this, to not pass it over too quickly by saying "oh it's not real" and spiritualizing the whole thing like i'm above it somehow. just staying real as it rolls.

that was the point of the whole post..... getting real. not playing games. admitting that i have nothing to offer, nothing that i know. and how damn difficult that is to admit.

thanks for the replies, all.

[enigma]

Children play make believe for the fun of it. It doesn't matter that it means nothing. There is curiosity and wonder and laughter and tears, and it's really okay.

[robert]

e. excellent analogy children playing, and our playing children are our little ego's are telling ghost stories making sure that each of us understands on some primal fear based level that we can't live without them.

and as long as the story can keep us afraid, keep us hesitating, keep us viewing the world through the lens of pointlessness then the ego wins because once you look around and realize that the ego filter is no longer whispering in your ear, "so what that you woke up you are still going to die all your friends and family and even the world is going to die.(ha-ha-ha)

without the ego even briefly, you will instantly feel the wonder and as that ego creeps back in and tries to distract you with the thousands of nothing things it uses to distract and misdirect. you will have seen all the way past it and none of this will not matter, not even sort of. worry and fear- what for?