Post by frustratedwanter on Feb 9, 2011 19:00:54 GMT -5
could be I am typing into the void. I will at least be momentarily satisfied. I wants to tell the world something. You don't get more "world" than the WWW! I want to find meaning in the fact that Ramesh Balsekar and some sort of scandal was right above the REGISTER NOW button. (I'm not yelling) May not be any meaning to it. An interesting synchronicity. I have one quote which strikes me as true from Ramesh, I copied it. Kept it in my car. Thought back on it often. "The realization had dawned that there is no individual to want anything." It goes on. Like I said, it struck me as true. At some point I discovered that Ramesh was associated with Nisargadatta. Don't know which one I found first. Nisargadatta struck me as true.
Who the hell am I that I would know?
Maybe I am that which knows. I wouldn't know!
Of Ramesh I only had that quote. Nisargadatta? I have books. Of late I find myself looking at his pictures, wishing I could somehow gain some "guru worship" goodies.
Today for some reason I googled Ramesh. Discovered this controversy. Googled the one discussing the controversy. Tim conway. Found another controversy. Find that many disagree with many and in the end you are on your own.
I am on my own.
What I see is that there are thousands, millions, of body/minds out there expounding "THE TRUTH"!
I see that I am inclined to believe what they say.
Because "they" are the expounders of truth.
I see that I have no reason to accept what any one says.
I see that I don't believe everything that I hear.
I don't know the one that decides what to believe.
I am that, aren't I?
I'm on this site because I see no reason to believe anything any body says. But I'm looking for something somebody says that will somehow show me what the hell somebody who knows can show me about what the hell I'm trying to find out about this show!
I don't know if this sounds like the confusion that might arise in one who is trying to understand the ultimate understanding that is beyond all understanding.
Or if it sounds like I'm drunk.
I am that.
Looking for something greater.
Love.
Who the hell am I that I would know?
Maybe I am that which knows. I wouldn't know!
Of Ramesh I only had that quote. Nisargadatta? I have books. Of late I find myself looking at his pictures, wishing I could somehow gain some "guru worship" goodies.
Today for some reason I googled Ramesh. Discovered this controversy. Googled the one discussing the controversy. Tim conway. Found another controversy. Find that many disagree with many and in the end you are on your own.
I am on my own.
What I see is that there are thousands, millions, of body/minds out there expounding "THE TRUTH"!
I see that I am inclined to believe what they say.
Because "they" are the expounders of truth.
I see that I have no reason to accept what any one says.
I see that I don't believe everything that I hear.
I don't know the one that decides what to believe.
I am that, aren't I?
I'm on this site because I see no reason to believe anything any body says. But I'm looking for something somebody says that will somehow show me what the hell somebody who knows can show me about what the hell I'm trying to find out about this show!
I don't know if this sounds like the confusion that might arise in one who is trying to understand the ultimate understanding that is beyond all understanding.
Or if it sounds like I'm drunk.
I am that.
Looking for something greater.
Love.