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[dei]

Just a bit of background on "me" (ewww, what a concept: 'me')

I am blessed to attend a meditation (satsang sometimes) with zendancer every other week, and that's how i found this site.

Had a mystical experience when i was 19 or 20, and it took time to recover from it (and darn, i wish i hadn't worked so hard to recover!) because i didn't understand it and it scared me out of my body. Having recovered, i did all the normal stuff normal people do: met my mate, graduated from college, got a job, bought a house, had babies, had problems, had joy... so what.

In 2001 i found Religious Science which seemed to be a fascinating philosophy, echoing what i pretty much believed as a deist, and going further. I studied and meditated and took classes and became a licensed Practitioner. I can pray effectively and the universe unfolds as requested. (so what? *lol*)

In 2006, while studying for the ministry, i had a calling to live in the woods. I argued with it, but within 6 months we had moved to the woods. Thank goodness i didn't argue too hard.

Science of Mind/Religious Science did its job: we were able to sell the house just before the bottom completely fell out of the market. But now that we are where i need to be, there is nothing left to pray for. I'm just grateful. Love the woods. Love my life.

I am not 'clear' yet though. That's all there is left to desire: clarity/enlightenment whatever you like to call IT. And i see that it's not something i can DO anything about. Zendancer helped me see that, helped me see that my personal-self is the hindrance and it can't do anything about itself. *lol* How could it, it doesn't actually exist!

So i meditate a lot, and IT sometimes presses through, and i trust that IT will be clear when IT is ready because IT already is.

And it's nice to find a forum of like-minded people, because all my old religious science (and unity) friends are still praying for stuff, and i love them for it... i just don't do that any more.

So, anyway.... hi. ♥

[Portto]

Hi Dei,
Welcome!
It's sure nice living in the woods. Did you convince your children to come with you?

[lightmystic]

Welcome to the forum Dei! I'll look forward to chatting with you....

[dei]

Hi porto! The kids were off at college at the time, my parents were healthy, i saw the window of opportunity to make a get-away, and took it. *lol* My parents are still a bit peeved, and my kids have expressed regret that we don't still live in Los Angeles, and no, they didn't come here and i would be highly surprised if they settled anywhere but in a city on either coast (there's something about the ocean that just won't let go, ya know? not that we lived near the ocean but it was accessible for a day at the beach).

The move was truly an opportunity for non-attachment... we were ruthless in throwing things away and not moving 'junk' (nothing broken, and nothing purely sentimental)... and recognizing that loving family does not require one to live with them. Yes, now i occasionally feel lonely for them, but life is just too sweet here for real regrets... and the kids visit, and we stay in touch by phone and Facebook. Living in the woods these days is not like a desert island.

Thanks for asking.
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LM - i certainly look forward to reading more of your wisdom on this forum. Thank you for the welcome.

[klaus]

Hi dei,

You're blessed to know zendancer.

I realize now THAT is zendancer expressing ITSELF as love and compassion as well as lightmystic and several others on this fourm.

Klaus