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Post by charliegee on Jul 12, 2010 22:39:23 GMT -5
meatballs
all the masters failed at this to state the reason for their bliss they tell us things we all dismiss cause who can understand them my grandma on the other hand tells me things I understand on culinary arts she will expand her meatballs, we demand them now Jesus, Buddha had it down they turned this suffering world around in every village, every town people follow what they said but me, I find it awfully hard I try but never find the cards with all their teachings I have sparred but prefer to make meatballs instead CG 7/12/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 12, 2010 23:44:15 GMT -5
free alterations
got an enlightenment suit it fit perfectly ... but the guy in the store keep pushing me to alter it to make it better. more up to date hipper, snappier but I kept insisting it was just fine the way it was I mean it looked great felt even better, but no he insisted than the dual vents should be made into one or none at all he wanted me to see it his way perhaps the lift was too high off the shoes or the sleeves were they okay? I paid the price and walked out looking and feeling fine still get mail though free alterations on any existing clothing when you buy a new suit CG 7/13/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 13, 2010 23:45:47 GMT -5
slight turn
when I'm lost in feeling nervousness, that tingling jittery sensation, that lack of ease ... it's then I sense resistance a return to old thought processes the fight or flight response in short, the urge to escape which precipitated former escape strategies mostly chemical in nature the difference now being it is observed, watched not acted on ... neither conceptually nor pharmaceutically ... joy, on the other hand is accepted, enjoyed noticed as well ... but without the resistance been a long journey see things now ~ in a way previously impossible slight turn ... slight shift makes all the difference in the world as the world takes on a beauty previously impossible to see slight turn ... slight shift makes all the difference in the world ... ... ... CG 7/14/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 14, 2010 8:03:06 GMT -5
grace
I stood before you/like a barren tree/stark against/the winter sky ~ my branches bare/my bark dry/I was closer to death/than to life ~ hoping against hope/I called to you/asking your mercy/begging/your peace ~ I had no strength/to persevere/I was wavering/ready to fall ~ to sink into/the dry, cold earth/and be/no more ~ but, you heard/you rescued me/brought me water/sent the sun to warm me ~ and now/I thank you/all the day/I sing your praises ~ amazed/that grace/still/amazes ... CG 12/12/09
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Post by charliegee on Jul 15, 2010 6:42:47 GMT -5
broken mirrors
there is a sadness a deepening sadness that grips me, strips me of feeling ... welling up from God knows where settling, unsettling leaving dread only dread in it's wake it is physical in nature in my shoulders, my stomach strangely the mind is unaffected the mind sits and watches the movement, the waves the tides rush in crash and rage and move out again only to return only to return in the never-ending play of emotion, of ideation moon on the water frozen reflections broken mirrors ... CG 7/15/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 16, 2010 13:31:30 GMT -5
here where we abide many words are represented shallow men listen
CG 7/16/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 16, 2010 19:34:28 GMT -5
canine coercion
got my hair cut today first time since Mom died in March ~ it was kinda long and it sure is hot out there... See More
still, I wasn't planning on it got my dog groomed last Wednesday and he kept buggin' me, sayin' c'mon do it
just do it, he was annoying and me, I don't usually crumble to canine coaxing but he caught me off guard
and I did it, just did it it's alright, don't mind it much suppose I'll be cooler suppose it's alright ...
no matter what I'm gonna tell that damn dog to just mind his business next time to just straight up shut his yap
that's what I'm gonna do ...
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Post by enigma on Jul 16, 2010 21:15:43 GMT -5
Hehe. Well, ya gotta draw the line somewhere or you'll be eating out of a bowl and Rover will be sitting at the table. Can't have that!
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Post by charliegee on Jul 17, 2010 5:17:17 GMT -5
true enough, my friend, true enough ...
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Post by charliegee on Jul 17, 2010 6:40:00 GMT -5
listen with your heart words aren't neccessary let the silence sink into wash into, soak into
your suit of flesh until you are cleansed of doubt ...
for who can doubt what is right before their eyes?
right ~ before their eyes ...
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Post by lobo on Jul 17, 2010 10:05:38 GMT -5
this is not original, just what I remeber from an old Navajo saying or song.... In beauty I walk With beauty before me I walk With beauty behind me I walk With beauty all around me I walk In beauty I walk he he, sorry, not drama, no suffering just beauty
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Post by charliegee on Jul 19, 2010 22:24:51 GMT -5
getting by
we survive, we get by we make ends meet we barely make it we muddle along treading water telling ourselves and everyone else that we're fine ... just fine, it's all good but at the end of the day what is there? ~ what is left after all the ends are met ... what do we do with the rest? who we are? ~ what are we here for? what 's it all about? don't know that we ever ask that question let alone answer it we say we're happy ... tell everybody that we are how come on this marvelous blue planet we call home ... with all it's wonders it's beauty ~ it's absolute, sheer loveliness how come we, the crown of creation are content to muddle along making ends meet, just getting by something is really wrong we need to wake up shake off the cobwebs join the flow of being forget who we think we are who we were taught we are and simply effortlessly timelessly be ........... CG 7/19/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 20, 2010 15:33:32 GMT -5
one
a pressure is felt a tightening, a gripping in my chest, a contraction my mind watches as if ... it were happening to someone else ... as if the thing observed and the one observing were two different things two separate things as if I were split in two mind/body ~ me/not me the pressure builds it mounts day by day I wait (whoever I am) I wait for the explosion the blast that integrates that melds, combines all the parts into one cohesive whole one entity all the disparate parts coming together complete, fulfilled ~ as one CG 7/20/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 21, 2010 16:35:26 GMT -5
broken
something broke inside me didn't know that it was broken suppose the time was coming that we had awoken ...
suppose the day was nearing when we'd see right through it didn't know just what it was but all the time I knew it ...
a feeling deep inside me afraid to let it out something had to give just had to get it out
suppose this life we live is no more than a joke we walk around like dead men don't even know we're broke
something broke inside me didn't know that it was broken suppose the time was coming that we had awoken ...
CG 7/21/10
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Post by charliegee on Jul 21, 2010 19:01:42 GMT -5
the act
we hold it all inside a lot of us do that go along, smile make it all seem alright ... See More
so no one will see no one will think to ask if we're okay ... the disguise takes time
to construct ... years and years funny how people find it hard to talk
in front of a crowd when the rest of their lives are an act... one scene after another
academy award performances if you ask me ~ so good that no one knows it's an act ~ so good ...
that we only let down the guard when we're alone and then the curtains fall the spotlight fades
and we bow sad and alone bowing deeply so sad and so alone ...
CG 7/21/10
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