Post by dramos on Sept 22, 2009 7:48:17 GMT -5
Before I begin this topic I must confess something. I had a moment of self discovery and wanted to post it on the board but I hesitated. Like a scared little puppy with it's tail between it's legs I emailed this to another member first, due to the inadequacies of being self confident ....."no one understands me, sniff". I am getting past this, for this is who I am and this is how I feel about things. Be "brusque" for I am still trying to rid old ideologies, I need these things to become stronger. I will do my best at answering any questions, maybe not immediately, for I take time to review before I answer.
I just wanted to share with you a concept to a "reality" for myself at least and would enjoy hearing replies to this.
For such a long time of trying to rationally figure why I am "here", what is my purpose of existing and why it is that I have come to understand certain things, finally started dawning on me this day.
A brief introduction before I go any further because I don't want the following to be perceived that I feel I'm divine, I am not , I am an ordinary person who lives a simple life. I have a wide array of friends who I consider family as well, I have helped these people with fix up projects around their homes due to the fact of being in the remodeling business for quite some time. Not only do I make a business connection but a personal connection as well and for some reason, which fathoms me, some of these people actually call me, for personal advice...I'm not special but I guess my personal connection with them is. Now I shall continue with my subject of which is conveying with interest to those of my own "family".
I am of physical existence in material of which is part of the matrix of an illusion but also I am aware to that which is void of the matrix. In coming to understand of the later I realized the banality and mundaneness of the physical matrix because I knew of it's opposite. So the question kept coming up, for what is my purpose in the "here"? My conclusion was to help those still within the realm of the matrix, then came, but how and why? It became a perpetuation of "views". Those within the matrix are unaware of it's existence, thus their view of things are of the here and now, "this is how life is" mentality.
Now that I have stepped "outside" my whole view of things has changed however, do I stop taking care of the needs of those still "within" ? No I cannot, just because I see the banalities and muddaneness of things doesn't mean that these things are such to them. In being there for their needs, whatever that may be, I create a bond, now within that bond is an unseen trust and that trust yields a type of loyalty...not only in fulfilling a commitment but going beyond. So the reason for my "here" is just that, in doing such things you find people will start opening themselves up to you and no matter how a conversation goes there is always an area of which you can help them to look at things from a different point of view.
Now to address existing beyond the matrix. I meditated on this for some time and it hit me like a ton of bricks to the point of having a sickening feeling and after some time this passed, let me explain.
Let me begin with "time". My understanding of time has changed to the point of discovering the voids within it, everything it encompasses blends together as infinite. My tracking of time is only involved with those around me, it is a made commitment to their own time. That conclusion allowed me to see beyond, everything in existence, including the universe, follows a set pattern of time and dates but if time becomes an illusion then everything becomes an illusion of which becomes nothingness....................except..................................Creation!
Creation is the Key to the Whole. "Everything" exists from this. The universe was Created by the Divine, everything on this earth was Created by the Divine as well as us humans. We were Created in the likeness of the Divine of which we ourselves have this ability to Create. Our "free will" is that of creation itself and because of not using it properly we have created our own selfish desired "matrix". So with the understanding of this how do we change it? For one we need to reacquaint ourselves with the Divine and it begins with a personal endeavour, once that bond is made then becomes the need to help others and this is by our own examples in accordance with the Divine. Practice the Fruitage's of the Spirit, this in itself is the key to the becoming into the "purity" of "being" for the purpose of Creating anew toward awakening our own Spirit, our Divine Spirit. A perplexing paradox of our "essence".
I just wanted to share with you a concept to a "reality" for myself at least and would enjoy hearing replies to this.
For such a long time of trying to rationally figure why I am "here", what is my purpose of existing and why it is that I have come to understand certain things, finally started dawning on me this day.
A brief introduction before I go any further because I don't want the following to be perceived that I feel I'm divine, I am not , I am an ordinary person who lives a simple life. I have a wide array of friends who I consider family as well, I have helped these people with fix up projects around their homes due to the fact of being in the remodeling business for quite some time. Not only do I make a business connection but a personal connection as well and for some reason, which fathoms me, some of these people actually call me, for personal advice...I'm not special but I guess my personal connection with them is. Now I shall continue with my subject of which is conveying with interest to those of my own "family".
I am of physical existence in material of which is part of the matrix of an illusion but also I am aware to that which is void of the matrix. In coming to understand of the later I realized the banality and mundaneness of the physical matrix because I knew of it's opposite. So the question kept coming up, for what is my purpose in the "here"? My conclusion was to help those still within the realm of the matrix, then came, but how and why? It became a perpetuation of "views". Those within the matrix are unaware of it's existence, thus their view of things are of the here and now, "this is how life is" mentality.
Now that I have stepped "outside" my whole view of things has changed however, do I stop taking care of the needs of those still "within" ? No I cannot, just because I see the banalities and muddaneness of things doesn't mean that these things are such to them. In being there for their needs, whatever that may be, I create a bond, now within that bond is an unseen trust and that trust yields a type of loyalty...not only in fulfilling a commitment but going beyond. So the reason for my "here" is just that, in doing such things you find people will start opening themselves up to you and no matter how a conversation goes there is always an area of which you can help them to look at things from a different point of view.
Now to address existing beyond the matrix. I meditated on this for some time and it hit me like a ton of bricks to the point of having a sickening feeling and after some time this passed, let me explain.
Let me begin with "time". My understanding of time has changed to the point of discovering the voids within it, everything it encompasses blends together as infinite. My tracking of time is only involved with those around me, it is a made commitment to their own time. That conclusion allowed me to see beyond, everything in existence, including the universe, follows a set pattern of time and dates but if time becomes an illusion then everything becomes an illusion of which becomes nothingness....................except..................................Creation!
Creation is the Key to the Whole. "Everything" exists from this. The universe was Created by the Divine, everything on this earth was Created by the Divine as well as us humans. We were Created in the likeness of the Divine of which we ourselves have this ability to Create. Our "free will" is that of creation itself and because of not using it properly we have created our own selfish desired "matrix". So with the understanding of this how do we change it? For one we need to reacquaint ourselves with the Divine and it begins with a personal endeavour, once that bond is made then becomes the need to help others and this is by our own examples in accordance with the Divine. Practice the Fruitage's of the Spirit, this in itself is the key to the becoming into the "purity" of "being" for the purpose of Creating anew toward awakening our own Spirit, our Divine Spirit. A perplexing paradox of our "essence".
