And ALL the Old "gods"

Swami,

Relax, Love. Do not let paranoia overwhelm you. Peter did not break into your computer or Yahoo's computer. He has managed to push your emotional buttons though by doing a simple little trick. Everyone can do this trick. You can do this trick.

I am sure there are several explanations for how Peter knew of your former town. Either it was a lucky guess or he did a look-up on your IP address. OR perhaps you have said somewhere on the Internet where you live.

Each computer has its own unique IP number, much like you have your own fingerprint. If you look at some of the email messages I sent you, you will find an IP address from my computer. If you do a WHOIS search you will find my location. Every email has a header and you can find this information in the header.

Try it. Open up one of the emails I had sent to you in your Yahoo account. In the bottom right-hand corner there is a link that says "Full Headers". You will see a funny number beside "Received", like this: "Received: from [74.130.X.X] by web37105.mail.mud.yahoo.com via HTTP; Sun, 16 Nov 2008 23:02:31 PST" Now, I have put an X in place of two numbers but if you look you will see my IP number. You can find out where I live by doing an IP Look-up.

Someone may be able to narrow down what town you live/lived in, but as far as I know there is no way for any one to find out exactly which house you live in. You'd have to be the actual Internet Provider to know this.

Personally, if you're that worried about it, I would recommend getting a gmail account, because I don't think gmail gives out your IP when you send emails.

If you want to know more, please email me.

It is now more clear to me than ever that there is something going on with you. I'm tempted to call it paranoid schizophrenia but no matter what it is I want you to feel safe. I am certain you are in a safe place on this forum. You may tick everyone off with your antics but I think every one really cares about you. If you are a "crazy", so what.... so am I!

I care about you. I know you'll ridicule me for this, but that's just you being you. I'm a big girl and I can take it.

I have been thinking about the way this thread has been going, and reflecting on my impression that my latest emails have been a tad lacking in compassion.

No I didn't do anything illegal Swami, I just looked up the domain registration information you yourself made a matter of public record when you bought your website. I hope to be able to prove this to the court's satisfaction when the Police come for me.

There is no privacy on the Internet. A door, once opened, goes both ways. I did respect your privacy to the extent of not posting your street and house number - now that would have been rude!

Swami,

Please forgive me for trying to label you as schizophrenic. You are right - I did scape the bottom of the barrel for that one.

You can't catch a virus from reading these forum messages. If you do have a virus, email me and I can help you get rid of it.

Your friend,

-Sophia

Man, this Swami thing is turning out pretty sad. I have to say it's getting old.

Anyway, Peter, I think it might actually be impossible to explain my experience of pure subjectivity, but it would have to assume objectivity for you be able to relate to it. That's pretty funny now that I think about it.

Maybe I can put it this way. If everything is experienced as essentially the same as you, then everything that is perceived is also recognized as the perceiver. So if everything is the perceiver (i.e. subjective) looking at the perceiver (i.e. subjective), then what isn't subjective? The only thing that could perhaps not be seen as ultimately subjective might be the PROCESS Self of perceiving Self. However, It's my experience that the process is just as much the Self too. So that ends up with a situation that's pure subjectivity.

There a realization that really helped me when unity was starting to come together was when I was wondering how two things, separated by space and time, could unify. What I found was that I was assuming a process of perception that was separate from me. Thus, if the actual process of seeing itself was me, then recognizing what was seen as me was not so different, and so not so hard to accept.

Does that make sense?

Don't worry Swami. At some point you will understand what I'm talking about, even if it's not this lifetime.