Post by plutus on Dec 24, 2014 18:22:05 GMT -5
Hello good people
I am Plutus from Croatia and I have experienced yesterday something that I can not explain, not only explain,I am in shock and in a strange way lucky to be alive but not so direct. For a couple of years I have been meditating and over time I found out that the meditation is the state what I call The eye of the storm, you know peaceful inside (static) and extremely dinamic outside. To tell you - I am not a beginner but I am no master by far but I will tell you that I experienced Akashaic records more then once, once of twice I experienced what I call Ramana Maharshi (saint) state, so beautiful, peaceful, all the answers present themself on platter, instantly, no doubt, no questions, no need for proof, IT IS WHAT IT IS and we all are a part of 1 whatever you want to call it, if I have to use words perhaps SOURCE would be the closest to explain. So I have solid experience in spirituality or I thought so at least. I often use plants to help me detox my body as todays food, water and almost all is toxic, plants like blue lotus, calea zacatechichi, guayusa and many others are my guide to this realm and really helped me a ton to get my pineal gland in better shape and from that point the whole body which is I think a never ending process in this situation we live in. Now I am coming to my question, the answer is illuding me for some reason and I can not meditate at all, like I am someone who never meditated and cant get still, like a beginner or a restless child. I am like that cause the energy surging in me is almost to much for this body to bear. I will try to explain everything as best as I can, I do not lie nor I have a reason to, all I need is a little help please.
23.12.2014. In the evening I made my tea, a little stronger but not much. Only stuff like calea zacatechichi from Ecuador and nothing in bags or bought in the local store or supermarket. I went on youtube to watch some stuff while I enjoy my tea and found some beautiful healing music, it said 432 Hz DNA healing, chakra cleansing meditation and I enjoyed it very much and it is over 4 hours long, beautiful. SO, you know I am "awake", doing stuff normally, the music is almost being attracted to every pore of my being, sometimes a tinggle situation (sorry for my grammar, I do not bother myself too much with it) and I am thinking to myself WOW if this is "awake" what will happen when I lay down and concentrate. So, after a while I did lay down and not a second after that, instantly things began. Normally, I need a few seconds/minutes to prepare and silence the mind, visualize... BUT now there is no need for that and I am again WOW, it started in the belly and when I say it I mean this - energy surge that is doing something for a longer period of time, it does not go away but it is in a way connected to that music, when I put my hands on it, it gets drastically stronger, like the healer would place his hands on someone. The energy is so strong that my body trembles like I am so cold but I am not cold, it is like it almost hurts but actually it is like is tingling my soul, can not explain it better. I had to laugh, I just had to. The thing here is that it gets stronger and stronger and I realized that maybe it is better that I remove my hands cause it is on the horizon of being unpleasent and I did and tried to concentrate for some astral projection or similar state. Then the brain did something, maybe not even brain, perhaps the pineal gland or I dont know, it did something that made every hair on my head stand up and it is was like someone is massaging all in the skull all the time. The load was so heavy, so heavy but the state is and was special, I could feel that with my all. After that my heart started to race like thats it for you and instantly I understood that the EGO was testing me with thoughts of death and other things linking me to here like people, love, you know things that make your physical life. Sometimes he gets me, sometimes I get him but this time for some reason I thought to myself: you really are scared and I offered a prayer to my EGO telling him that there is another way we can co-exist, that I do not need to discard him to move further, that we can do it together as you are a part of me and vice versa...All the time the energy is brutal, makes me tremble but it moved to the heart when the music changed a bit and the test of ego came...so , I am offering my prayer and in one moment the energy stopped and concentrated in 1 point so it was like a big marble in my upper belly, little more to the right side and it accumulated energy for a couple of seconds, I had to laugh, it was touching my soul in a way but then it started moving to the heart. I can not explain, like I was dead and reborn every second, like the heart expanded to a bigger area taking my whole solar plexus (what does that mean anyway???why solar???), then the solar plexus became what I would describe as empty, like a black hole to be honest. YOu know that feeling - it is not pain but something that you did not felt ever, a presence but in such a huge concetration that is almost causing fear, very close to it, like it is triggering my defense mechanism of some sort. I could not sleep for hours (finally I did about 12 am!!!). When I woke up I feel that "balck hole" in the plexus, it is a presence which I would compare with the presence you feel or the afterglow of opening the 3rd eye,the feeling of walking with GOD (exactly those words, walking with), almost the same but so much stronger, bigger, almost like a point of origin in some way, the feeling is hard to explain with empty words. My whole body now is concentrated in the heart, like a centar of gravity in a way.It is all I feel today, I am in shock and do not know how to proceed with this, what does it mean? I humbly ask anyone here experienced that knows what I am talking about to help me with their experience or tips, anything. I am in good health, a younger guy so it is nothing sickness related. I eat a lot of veggies, meat in very very small amounts, ride bicycles and drink tea every day only from "old school plants" like calea zacatechichi, blue lotus, catmint, dittany, passionflower, wild dagga, guayusa and many others as I believe that they are much closer to GOD then we are living like this so they help me in that way. I am telling you this to say I am healthy, young and still do not understand this so if anybody, I mean anybody understands what I am going through please tell me, I ask as a men in need of help and a little guidance, I am almost nobody and nothing but I need somebody to please help me. I am sure that I can help you back, thank you and please write me, it is so important.
I am Plutus from Croatia and I have experienced yesterday something that I can not explain, not only explain,I am in shock and in a strange way lucky to be alive but not so direct. For a couple of years I have been meditating and over time I found out that the meditation is the state what I call The eye of the storm, you know peaceful inside (static) and extremely dinamic outside. To tell you - I am not a beginner but I am no master by far but I will tell you that I experienced Akashaic records more then once, once of twice I experienced what I call Ramana Maharshi (saint) state, so beautiful, peaceful, all the answers present themself on platter, instantly, no doubt, no questions, no need for proof, IT IS WHAT IT IS and we all are a part of 1 whatever you want to call it, if I have to use words perhaps SOURCE would be the closest to explain. So I have solid experience in spirituality or I thought so at least. I often use plants to help me detox my body as todays food, water and almost all is toxic, plants like blue lotus, calea zacatechichi, guayusa and many others are my guide to this realm and really helped me a ton to get my pineal gland in better shape and from that point the whole body which is I think a never ending process in this situation we live in. Now I am coming to my question, the answer is illuding me for some reason and I can not meditate at all, like I am someone who never meditated and cant get still, like a beginner or a restless child. I am like that cause the energy surging in me is almost to much for this body to bear. I will try to explain everything as best as I can, I do not lie nor I have a reason to, all I need is a little help please.
23.12.2014. In the evening I made my tea, a little stronger but not much. Only stuff like calea zacatechichi from Ecuador and nothing in bags or bought in the local store or supermarket. I went on youtube to watch some stuff while I enjoy my tea and found some beautiful healing music, it said 432 Hz DNA healing, chakra cleansing meditation and I enjoyed it very much and it is over 4 hours long, beautiful. SO, you know I am "awake", doing stuff normally, the music is almost being attracted to every pore of my being, sometimes a tinggle situation (sorry for my grammar, I do not bother myself too much with it) and I am thinking to myself WOW if this is "awake" what will happen when I lay down and concentrate. So, after a while I did lay down and not a second after that, instantly things began. Normally, I need a few seconds/minutes to prepare and silence the mind, visualize... BUT now there is no need for that and I am again WOW, it started in the belly and when I say it I mean this - energy surge that is doing something for a longer period of time, it does not go away but it is in a way connected to that music, when I put my hands on it, it gets drastically stronger, like the healer would place his hands on someone. The energy is so strong that my body trembles like I am so cold but I am not cold, it is like it almost hurts but actually it is like is tingling my soul, can not explain it better. I had to laugh, I just had to. The thing here is that it gets stronger and stronger and I realized that maybe it is better that I remove my hands cause it is on the horizon of being unpleasent and I did and tried to concentrate for some astral projection or similar state. Then the brain did something, maybe not even brain, perhaps the pineal gland or I dont know, it did something that made every hair on my head stand up and it is was like someone is massaging all in the skull all the time. The load was so heavy, so heavy but the state is and was special, I could feel that with my all. After that my heart started to race like thats it for you and instantly I understood that the EGO was testing me with thoughts of death and other things linking me to here like people, love, you know things that make your physical life. Sometimes he gets me, sometimes I get him but this time for some reason I thought to myself: you really are scared and I offered a prayer to my EGO telling him that there is another way we can co-exist, that I do not need to discard him to move further, that we can do it together as you are a part of me and vice versa...All the time the energy is brutal, makes me tremble but it moved to the heart when the music changed a bit and the test of ego came...so , I am offering my prayer and in one moment the energy stopped and concentrated in 1 point so it was like a big marble in my upper belly, little more to the right side and it accumulated energy for a couple of seconds, I had to laugh, it was touching my soul in a way but then it started moving to the heart. I can not explain, like I was dead and reborn every second, like the heart expanded to a bigger area taking my whole solar plexus (what does that mean anyway???why solar???), then the solar plexus became what I would describe as empty, like a black hole to be honest. YOu know that feeling - it is not pain but something that you did not felt ever, a presence but in such a huge concetration that is almost causing fear, very close to it, like it is triggering my defense mechanism of some sort. I could not sleep for hours (finally I did about 12 am!!!). When I woke up I feel that "balck hole" in the plexus, it is a presence which I would compare with the presence you feel or the afterglow of opening the 3rd eye,the feeling of walking with GOD (exactly those words, walking with), almost the same but so much stronger, bigger, almost like a point of origin in some way, the feeling is hard to explain with empty words. My whole body now is concentrated in the heart, like a centar of gravity in a way.It is all I feel today, I am in shock and do not know how to proceed with this, what does it mean? I humbly ask anyone here experienced that knows what I am talking about to help me with their experience or tips, anything. I am in good health, a younger guy so it is nothing sickness related. I eat a lot of veggies, meat in very very small amounts, ride bicycles and drink tea every day only from "old school plants" like calea zacatechichi, blue lotus, catmint, dittany, passionflower, wild dagga, guayusa and many others as I believe that they are much closer to GOD then we are living like this so they help me in that way. I am telling you this to say I am healthy, young and still do not understand this so if anybody, I mean anybody understands what I am going through please tell me, I ask as a men in need of help and a little guidance, I am almost nobody and nothing but I need somebody to please help me. I am sure that I can help you back, thank you and please write me, it is so important.
