Post by whiteshaman on Apr 16, 2014 7:28:20 GMT -5
I’ll try to keep this short. It’s exciting to me as it fills a hole which felt like something was missing.
In short due to repeated financial setbacks, I was forced to work 2 jobs. Both jobs have a level of stress associated with them. Throughout the experience I had this feeling that this was for me to learn something.
3 months into it, I found myself exhausted physically, mentally and psychologically. So much so that yesterday I made the decision that I have to give up the second job regardless of what might happen financially.
Almost immediately, I felt great. My strength was back and my demeanor was happy and hopeful again. My time off was almost exclusively spent with my family and in particular my grandchildren and there is nothing I would rather do than spend my time with them. So I was giving up a lot to do this.
Last night I was watching a documentary on grizzly bears and in one scene a mother and baby chose to swim across a mile long river to get to seagull eggs on the other side. The baby was in danger of not making it due to its size and the cold water. It made my struggle of 2 jobs look small.
I realized today that my life truly is a story and the story truly is the source of my suffering. The story is also the source of great joy and happiness. I see that my struggle was almost completely psychological.
I’ve lived long enough and experienced enough to just be with this realization that my life is a story. Observing something like this is usually enough to bring about changes associated with such realizations.
I find such realizations extremely exciting and I like to share such. What I am, never was affected, but my attention was not on what I am. I tried to keep it there and I thought that was the lesson but the need for a story won and in the end the realization of the need for a story won.
Thanks for listening.
In short due to repeated financial setbacks, I was forced to work 2 jobs. Both jobs have a level of stress associated with them. Throughout the experience I had this feeling that this was for me to learn something.
3 months into it, I found myself exhausted physically, mentally and psychologically. So much so that yesterday I made the decision that I have to give up the second job regardless of what might happen financially.
Almost immediately, I felt great. My strength was back and my demeanor was happy and hopeful again. My time off was almost exclusively spent with my family and in particular my grandchildren and there is nothing I would rather do than spend my time with them. So I was giving up a lot to do this.
Last night I was watching a documentary on grizzly bears and in one scene a mother and baby chose to swim across a mile long river to get to seagull eggs on the other side. The baby was in danger of not making it due to its size and the cold water. It made my struggle of 2 jobs look small.
I realized today that my life truly is a story and the story truly is the source of my suffering. The story is also the source of great joy and happiness. I see that my struggle was almost completely psychological.
I’ve lived long enough and experienced enough to just be with this realization that my life is a story. Observing something like this is usually enough to bring about changes associated with such realizations.
I find such realizations extremely exciting and I like to share such. What I am, never was affected, but my attention was not on what I am. I tried to keep it there and I thought that was the lesson but the need for a story won and in the end the realization of the need for a story won.
Thanks for listening.