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Post by charliegee on Nov 12, 2014 10:53:14 GMT -5
lonely boy
I'm a lonely boy I've been lost as long as I remember never knowing what life is
or love, for that matter, the only relief that comes is when I surrender any pretense of knowledge
I do love though in my own small way the door to my heart has been blown open
its easier that way love and peace enter when they will, when the wind blows away any wisp of restraint
pain comes and goes as well as joy .. .. I don't hold to one at the expense of the other
I used to do that the architect of all my fears barricading my heart with layer after layer
of reinforcement one day it all fell in leaving me quite broken and fully alive .. ..
a lost and lonely boy in the body of a old man walking the streets drinking in the winter sun
charlie giardino 11/12/14
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Post by laughter on Nov 12, 2014 16:08:57 GMT -5
powerful chazz ...
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Post by silver on Nov 16, 2014 0:12:03 GMT -5
I just like this little guy. A tribute to all the poets at st. Love you.
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Post by charliegee on Nov 17, 2014 21:51:48 GMT -5
love you too, silver ...
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Post by charliegee on Nov 17, 2014 23:19:06 GMT -5
thanks for that before you there was no me like life was nothing more than endless grey a black and white silent movie that morphed like a Disney film into technicolor with birds flying and singing sweet songs you connected my dots completed my sentences with periods and exclamations instead of unanswered questions life took on a meaning that was absent before so naturally I thought I would return to that lifeless state when you breathed your last breath thought it was over for me that I would just fade away into the emptiness that represented me without you but to my surprise I didn't realize that I was still here
and still me thanks for that charlie giardino 11/17/14
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Post by charliegee on Dec 4, 2014 10:40:30 GMT -5
there will be tears
who will say my eulogy as I'm laid into the cold December ground? dirt rains down on me covering whatever is left of me
I hope I am remembered with a smile and a raised glass with a fond glance into time with a laugh certainly
as they remember me their strange and loopy friend who'd do anything for a laugh
there will be tears my children my grandchildren but they too will smile
remember when he remember how he still the time ahead trumps the time before
I hope all my family all my friends will say, 'look how he loved us' and smile though their tears
I will be forgotten minute by minute hour by hour year by year
so while I have the chance to say to one and all I love you dearly more than I thought possible
my broken heart, you see has broken wide open leaving room for love boundless love
remember me for that
charlie giardino 12/2/2014
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Post by silver on Dec 5, 2014 13:57:53 GMT -5
"In secret we met— In silence I grieve, That thy heart could forget, Thy spirit deceive. If I should meet thee After long years, How should I greet thee? With silence and tears." __Lord Byron
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Post by charliegee on Dec 9, 2014 22:47:40 GMT -5
So I'm in the ER on a Sunday afternoon due to a severe swelling and pain in my neck where I was biopsied on Friday. It continues to swell and only gets more and more painful. Hardly slept cause it hurts more when I am lying down. Cat scan says non-malignant and I see the surgeon next Wednesday to set up a day for removal. Also, pain has subsided. Thank God.
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Post by silver on Dec 9, 2014 23:03:25 GMT -5
Wow charlie, so sorry to hear about your problem. Keep us posted. I'll be thinking of you. ~<3
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Post by charliegee on Dec 15, 2014 18:24:46 GMT -5
in peace the night before the night before said I, this close to dreaming this love parades, this love invades this heart, in silence, screaming and off, in distance, arms outspread the darkness, coming, nearer where worlds apart, shall all take part the picture glowing clearer and so, my soul, though less than whole grows stronger at the center I surrender all, I heed the call to find a place to enter and be it near, or be it far I'll take the world as lover as grace collides and coincides in peace I will take cover charlie giardino 12/15/14
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Post by laughter on Jan 6, 2015 22:13:49 GMT -5
once upon a winter's night once upon a winter's dream it happened on this earth two people met and traded hearts and saw their love give birth it was such a wonder they walked on wings of light they knew why they existed and wrong was brought to right they loved and lived together through happiness and strife and soon enough it happened she became his wife through Christmases and Easters they simply made their way ... children came and love did grow a miracle a day ... but in every fairytale, it seems ... sorrow follows laughter what happened to the love they shared and happy ever after? she was taken, he was left so deep in winter weather how would he make it on his own they knew nothing but together once upon a winter's dream a lover sits alone thinking back on all that was and ponders the unknown and somewhere in the dark of night a spark is lit and shines gratitude, the final thing to which a broken heart inclines CG 12/10/11 be thankful for the silence and thankful for the rain standing still in winter you can even welcome pain it's not as if you want it, there is nothing to stop standing still in winter there is nothing on top the sky is clear and cold and bright and down on you it shines standing still in winter here, the whisper of the pines in the wind you hear her call down to you in all time standing still in winter it is eternity you find
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Post by laughter on Jan 9, 2015 1:31:11 GMT -5
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Post by charliegee on Jan 9, 2015 8:49:32 GMT -5
amen and amen .....
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Post by charliegee on Jan 9, 2015 8:56:44 GMT -5
the swelling has subsided and is pracitically gone .. I'm scheduled for surgery but that may change given the smallness of the lump ..
then came diabetes .. I've had it and, as you all you know, I come from Italian heritage .. I partook in the fine fare we served over the holidays, the cakes, the cookies, the pastries, pasta, and antipasto so, naturally, my sugar rose and rose .. thankfully, I've got it under control now ... tbc I'm sure
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Post by laughter on Jan 9, 2015 9:06:42 GMT -5
the swelling has subsided and is pracitically gone .. I'm scheduled for surgery but that may change given the smallness of the lump .. then came diabetes .. I've had it and, as you all you know, I come from Italian heritage .. I partook in the fine fare we served over the holidays, the cakes, the cookies, the pastries, pasta, and antipasto so, naturally, my sugar rose and rose .. thankfully, I've got it under control now ... tbc I'm sure My mom used to say "you can live to be 100 if you give up everything worth living for". Hope you feel better Chazz, Happy new year!
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